This is for you, my sisters ^-^

I don't normally write a lot of poetry. But I wrote this ages ago for Martika and Jess. And I thought I'd post it here. One to remind them how much I love my sisters and two, because I bloody well feel like it. xD

In times gone by we’ve pondered

the paths our lives have taken

Knowing that in spite of this

our sister love unshaken.

Still that binding force exists

our sister love unbroken.

To me you are an angel in disguise.

Full of intuition, intelligent, and wise.

Always giving and helping through

Good times and bad.

You are the best friend I've ever had.

If I had one wish it would surely be

To give you as much as you've given to me.

A sister’s love is special

in ways that are unspoken

Through trials and tests, right by me

You stood,

And gave me your hand whenever you could.

Thank you so much my sister, my friend

My gratitude for you has no end.

I really wish I knew where I was going with this...

So, I was going through old blogs. You know, considering deleting old quizzes, the ones that no  longer truly pertain to my life in many respects. Found that pretty much any blog post from oh say, the last year that had photos in it... the pics now show up as a big black box with a circle and a slash in it. So last year, when almost 4 yrs of blog entries up and disappeared, now all the recent blogs that had photos, are kinda pointless. I guess, I'll go back and redo them, repost the pics and re-answer the past quizzes and bring them up to date.

And as an update, the concert this weekend was awesome. Concert was great, though I really wish that Cannibal Corpse had been the headliner rather than just an opener, but still amazing regardless. Can't wait for the next concert Jonathan and I decide on going to. Don't get me wrong, I love metal like really love it, but really hoping the next concert is a little less... well more "calm". Oddly enough, as much as loud noise and strobe lights normally bother me, and give me terrible migraines... I have no issues at all with metal concerts. I don't get migraines and they don't bug me. Jon and I find it odd, but also pretty awesome. Means I can enjoy the music I love and not have to worry too much. xD

 Other than the concert it was just one of our lazy day, curl up on the sofa together and watch movies sort of weekend. Gonna soak those in while I can, there won't be many left because there's work we have to do on the house. And the only really awesome thing was after we drove back to Toledo from Hilliard (a 3 hr car ride because of horrendous fog),    there was a lot of stalling, he didn't want to go back home and I didn't want him to leave. But once he got back, he was so excited about how his pillow smelled like me and just that little thing made the whole drive back worth it. ^/////^

So, there ya go... some of you wanted an update/ detailed description of this weekend... that's as detailed as I'm getting. xD

Also, here are pics from Sunday's concert... All of them are of Cannibal Corpse.... sorry. xD



And here are ones from the previous concert. In this order... Black Dahlia Murder, All that Remains, Machine Head, and Dethklok





Ayup, that about sums that up. Til next time. Toodles. xxx 

I'm back....

Since I currently cannot be bothered to write anything about the weekend... I shall leave you with this and hopefully have something more intriguing tomorrow to post. xD 



Was your last text message from someone of the opposite sex?

- Yes, just a g'night beautiful text from Jonathan. 

How about your last message on Facebook, was that from someone of the opposite sex?

- Nope, oddly enough it was from my brother's ex-girlfriend o.e 

Do you still laugh at jokes, even if they’re not funny?

- Probably a lot of the time.

If you could have a free plane ticket to anywhere, where would you choose to go?

- Can I trade in said free ticket for this cruise instead? ---> http://www.70000tons.com/

Is there someone that can always make you smile, even if you’re in a bad mood?

- Yep. 

Do you/did you work hard in school?

- I work my arse off in uni.

Where was the last place you went shopping? What did you buy?

- Emm... Friday, and I think it may have been soda. 

How have you been feeling today?

- Bloody exhausted because of the concert last night, but overall I am spectacular.

When was the last time you felt genuinely happy, and had a genuine smile on your face?

- This morning.

Is there someone you used to hang out with all the time, but you don’t anymore? Why?

-Hang= talk to... and yesh, I don't know that he honestly wants anything to do with me. When, in all honesty, it SHOULD be the other way around when you think about it.  

Have you felt ill at all in the past week?

- Not really.

In school, do you/did you have school dinners or take packed lunches?

- Emm.. both.

What’s the approximate total cost of the clothes you’re wearing?

- Emm... Cannibal Corpse shirt= $20.

Where was the last place on your body that you felt physical pain?

- Head.

Have you ever kissed the last person you hugged?

- Only on the cheek at this point. 

Has someone of the opposite sex made you smile recently?

- Yep yep.

Can your significant other/crush sing? 

- Well anyone can sing... the question is do they sound good... I say he does, he disagrees tho xD 

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a letter C, G, M, or H?

- M.

Have you ever felt as though you literally needed someone?

- Yeah.

What do you want/need right now?

- Caffeine, him, and a bit of money would be helpful.

How much does the last person you texted really know about you?

- Knows me about as well as I know myself.

Do you think anyone hates you?

- There may be on or two people who do.

What was the last lie you told? Why did you tell this lie?

- I’m not sure, can’t remember the last lie really.

Who was the last person you apologised to? What did you apologise for?

- Jonathan, for stalling... 

What are the initials of the person you have feelings for?

- JJ.

Are you wearing anything that has any type of pattern on it?

- Emm... unless bloody and corpses count as a pattern.. then no... 

Do you think your most recent ex still cares about you?

- I’d like to think so. And even if he doesn’t like me anymore I’d still hope he cares. But I don't honestly know because he's fallen of the face of the bloody earth and won't speak to me. v.v 

How was last night?

- Last night was utterly fantastic.

Did you straighten your hair today?

- Never straighten my hair.

Is your love life satisfactory?

- It could be so much better, but there's reasons it's not completely wonderful right now.

What’s the first word you can think of, that starts with the first letter of your name?

- Red-tail Hawk.

What was your last reason for smiling?

- Like a goof, it was because of Jonathan.

Do you prefer gold or silver jewellery?

- Silver.

Are you wearing nail varnish? What brand/shade?

- N/a.

Do you get songs stuck in your head a lot?

- Sometimes.

Did you dance at the last party you went to?

- Yeah.

How much spare change do you have? What could that buy you?

- Oddly enough, like $10. o.o  .... a lot of stuff... 

Where would you like to be in 5 years time?

- Nice apartment/ house, happy relationship/ married, good career... 

Is there anything about your life that you’re hoping to change over the next few months?

- There's a lot I'd love to change in the next few months .

Do you think the last person you kissed has genuine feelings for you?

- I hope so.

Are you with the person you want? If not, why not?

- Yes. 

Do you talk to your friends about sex?

- Kinda a very common topic. xD 

Is it okay to like someone else, if you already have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

- I guess it can happen as you can’t help who you like, you just need to not act on it, forget about it, or end it before anything happens.

What time do you usually go to bed? Can you fall asleep quickly, or does it take you some time to get to sleep?

- Pffft, when do I go to bed? .... that actually happens? ... all depends tbh. 

Would you spend the night in a haunted house?

- Sure, why not xD 

What if the last person you hugged walked out of your life?

- I think it'd kill me. I love my mum, couldn't imagine my life with out her. 

Where is the person that takes your breath away?

- Emm... Hilliard, OH.

Look in a mirror. Are you 100% happy with what you see? Why/why not?

- Not really. .

Who was the last person of the opposite sex to make you cry? Are you 100% over that person?

- Umm Dave/Kas I guess and yeah, I'd say I am.

Is there a song you that comes to mind when you think of your recent ex?
- Yep... here ya go... this song... ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6PI8wj1f48

How about the person you like/ significant other, is there a song that reminds you of them?
- Emmm, there are a few... but these two are the ones that often come to mind... --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJOSRPzQjPs   and   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do32g82qilk  (Thank you Martika for mentioning that one, I can't help but think of it now when it comes to him xP ) 

Do you chew your pens?

- Nope.

Do you truly hate the last person you had an argument with?

- No.

What did you like the most about today?

- A certain few texts, talking to both of my lovely sisters and seeing some of my family.

Is there anything you DIDN’T like about today?

- No.... 

Will tomorrow be better than today?

- No idea, I'd be happy if it were just as good as today. 

Also queued... have fun. xD

1. What’s the last digit in your mobile number?

- 7.

2. Your phone rings, who do you want it to be?

- Jonathan, Martika, or Jess.

3. So what was going on in your life this time last year? Share a memory from November 2011.

- Umm, the end of November/ beginning of December was great...was kinda lost in the haze of that fantasy that is an online/ long distance relationship.

4. Do you use the abbreviation ‘tbh’ a lot?

- Yeah.

5. Do you dislike the last person you had a conversation with? If so, why?

- Good, god... no! She's my sissy! I could never hate her.

6. The last time you got annoyed at your significant other/crush, what did he/she do wrong?

- I don’t even remember.

7. Are you procrastinating atm? In other words, is there something else you should be doing, instead of filling in this survey?

- No, because when this is posted, I'll be having a carefree weekend. So xP

8. What’s the first word on your last received text message? Who is the text from, and why did they text you?
- "O_O" Martika... in response to me mentioning Milky Way

9. Pick up the book closest to you, turn to page 82. What does the 11th word on that page say?

- “Looks”.

10. Do you know anyone called Charles or Charlotte? Tell me about him/her?

- Nope.

11. When was the last time someone told you that you were beautiful/good-looking? Do people often tell you this?

- Earlier. And not usually. xD

12. Are you missing someone of the opposite sex atm?

- Not atm, I'm with him right now. xD

13. Do you remember the last “little white lie” that you told? Why did you tell this lie?

- Nope, I can’t tbh, don’t think I have in a while.

14. Put a cross next to the things you like.

(x) Terry’s Chocolate Orange

(x) Turkish Delight

() Galaxy Cookie Crumble

(x) Toblerone

() Caramac

(x) Milky Bar

(x) Doritos

(x) Pringles
( ) Wotsits

( ) Skips

(x) Haribo Starmix

( ) Haribo Tangfastics

(x) Maltesers

(x) Minstrels

(x) Crunchie

(x) Curly Wurly

( ) Smarties

(x) Kitkat

(x) Milky Way

(x) Mars Bar

(x) Snickers

15. Have you kissed someone in the last 2 weeks?

- No. >.<

16. Is there someone who was important to you at one point, but isn’t part of your life anymore? Is there anything you’d like to say to that person?

- Yep. There's a whole hell of a lot I  LOVED to say. o.o

17. If you’re a girl, what would you do if you found out you were pregnant? Or, if you’re a guy, what would you do if you found out your girlfriend was pregnant?

- I wouldn’t, it’d be impossible since I’m not currently having sex at all.

18. At what age do you see yourself getting married?

- Sometime in the next 5 yrs.

19. If I was going to buy you some cookies, which would you like? Or, if you don’t really like cookies, would you prefer something else?

- Oooo, the survey is gonna buy me cookies? ... I want Custard Creams!

20. Who was the last person you talked to, whose name started with a letter L? What did you talk to them about?

- Loki (Luuk)... I'm not gonna say.

21. If the last person you kissed said that they loved you, would you believe them? And would you say it back?

- ...idk...

22. Is there a book, film or TV show that you didn’t like the ending to, and you’d change it to end differently, if you could? What would you change?

- There are a great many that I'd love to change.

23. Did you do something silly today?

- Meh, not really.

24. If you knew the last person you texted was going to be gone tomorrow, what would you want to say to them today?

- I’d have no idea. I tell her how much she means to me and that I didn't want to love her.

25. When did you last visit the bathroom?

- A while ago.

26. Has anyone ever told you that they would always be there for you?

- Yep. Sadly, just about every person who's ever said that eventually disappears and breaks their promise. v.v

27. The last thing you bought, was it a necessity, or just something you wanted? Or was it something you bought for someone else?

- Something I wanted/ needed... new jeans/ clothes

28. The last time you went out to eat, who were you with? Did you enjoy it?

- Last night... Jonathan... absolutely.

29. Do you use public transport regularly?

- I have a car... so no.

30. If your favourite food gave you migraines, would you still eat it?

- Yeah, probably.

31. Has anyone ever told you that they would never hurt you, but they did? If so, do you still speak to that person?

- Yeah, kinda goes with #26.... and I try, but it usually fails.

32. Do you/did you ever have school meals? Are they/were they nice?

- Yeah, and they were alright.

33. Has anyone made you feel like crap recently?

- Ummm, several people actually.

34. How many times have you looked in the mirror today?

- A few times.

35. Who was the last person to send you a message on Facebook? Do you know what colour that person’s eyes are?

- Martika and hazel.

36. Tell me 3 facts about the last person that texted you.

She’s my sissy.
She's the mother of my nephew.
And she's as weird/ odd as I am.

37. What was the last thing you laughed out loud at?

- Heh, kicking Jon's arse at Wii bowling.

38. Does the last person you kissed smoke cigarettes?

- Idr.

39. Who was the last person you hugged? Has that person ever made you cry?

- Jon, and no quite the opposite, he's usually the one that helps me keep calm and not cry. xD

40. Who was your last incoming call from? Have you ever kissed that person?

- Jonathan, from several days ago... and not yet. xD

41. Who was the last person you had an argument with? What did you argue about?

- My aunt... family related and it was not pretty.

42. Are you happy with what you’ve achieved in your life so far?

- I guess, well I’m content I suppose.

43. Is there anybody you’d like to see get hurt? If so, why?

- No.

44. Did you kiss someone last night?

- Nope.

45. What if the last person you kissed, was holding hands with the last person you texted?

- That wouldn’t happen, they don’t know each other and don’t think they’d be each others types anyway.

46. Do you have a friend whose name starts with the letter V? Tell me about him/her.

- Nah, can’t think of anyone.

47. Think of the person you dislike the most. How would you feel if you found out that person had died?

-  I don’t dislike anyone that much, but I guess I’d just not be too bothered, like it wouldn’t really effect my life.

48. Who was the last person that took a photo of you? Do you like the photo?

- Probably my brother Joshua... and I love him to death.

49. Do you cry easily, or does it take a lot to make you cry?

- Takes a lot unless I’m upset/in a bad mood or it's something that hits a certain chord. o.o
50. How was your day?

- Okay, nothing special. It'll get better tonight. Cannibal Corpse!!!!!

This survey has been queued ... that is all.

Do you swear to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth?
Sure.

Where were you last night?
Depending on when this gets posted, I'm probably at Jonathan's

What is today’s date?
It''ll be December 1, 2012 when this is posted...

Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?
No idea.

When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self check-out?
Quite often yeah.

Anyone crushing on you?
Ayup.

What is your relationship status?
In a relationship.

Who do you text the most?
Jonathan, Martika, and Jess.

How do you make your money?
I give massages, odd jobs and babysit.

How do you feel right now?
Okay, bored, exhausted and hurt.

Do you look more like your mom or dad?
Neither to be honest. I look like a younger version of my great grandmother.

Are you scared of flying?
Not at all.

Is there something bothering you right now?
Several things.

If you were told you were 8 weeks pregnant what would you say?
Be confused as you kind of need to have sex to be pregnant....

Where do you wanna go for vacation?
Anywhere.

Who last sent you a text msg?
Martika.

What would you say is your favorite food?
Chocolate.

What color is the keyboard you are currently using?
Black.

Would you rather write a report or type it on a computer?
I like writing tbh but for a report type it I guess.

What color was the last jacket or hoodie you wore?
Black.

Do you receive more compliments or insults on a daily basis?
Meh, idk.

Do you own any dresses? If so, what colors are they?
I have black, white, red/ orange/ turquoise, and yellow.

Would you say you drink more pop / soda than you should?
Yesh, good gos yeah. And I need to cut back on it.

Do you have your ears pierced? If not, what do you have pierced?
Seven different piercings all in the ears.

Do you ever think you might be pregnant?
Not anytime soon.

The person I like and why I like them.
Jonathan, because his smart, funny, a nerd like me, and all around fun to be with.

A famous person I’ve been compared to.
Nope. I look nothing like any famous person.

5 things that irritate me about the sex I’m most attracted to.
They can be a bit slow at getting hints. Football/ Sports obsessions. Acting all "Big man on top"

The best thing that has happened to me this week.
Getting away with Jonathan for the weekend.

Weird things I do when I’m alone.
Not really weird, but I sing and dance... horribly.

How I’d spend ten thousand bucks.
I'd probably buy stuff to set up my business...

Things I like and things I don’t like about the way I look.
I like- My hair, my eyes, my freckles
I dislike- everything else

My last night out in detail.
Out with Jess and Keanu. Dinner, drinks and movies.

Something that makes me sad when I think about it.
A lot... not naming specifics.

Something I’ve lied about.
Not sure recently.

Something I’m currently worrying about.
My brother, my family, lack of money/ job.

Something I do without realising.
I apparently bite my lip.

Lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
Here.... this song... right now----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCGpI6rz3x4

A drunken story.
Umm I don’t really have any, never truly been drunk. I tend to hold my alcohol really well, that and I don't drink much anymore ... for certain reasons. xD

Post a picture of myself.
http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn1/30970_10151240451939927_57367818_n.jpg

my longest relationship and who it was with.
Basically 2 years with James.

Press ctrl v and post.
No as that would just repeat the survey.

Post a bit of my last IM convo.
I haven't had an IM convo in days now v.v... so nothing to post here

5 things I want to change.
My lack of money, my boredom, my lack of confidence in myself, family issues, the on going depression/insomnia

Someone I’d like to be for a day and why.
Not sure.

5 things within touching distance.
Laptop, phone, kitten, candle and Brave (Merida) figurine

When was the last time you went tanning?
I don't tan... ginger *points to hair* .. remember?

What is your favorite drink?
Changes.

Do you spend more time on the computer or watching tv?
Computer.

Do you wear makeup?
Now and then, usually when I go out.

Are you a neat freak or a big mess?
Somehow, I am a mix of both.

Who was your favorite Disney character as a child?
As a kid, it was Ariel (red hair thing) ... now for sure it's Merida.

When was your last family vacation?
Umm... 2008, I wanna say.

What do you want to be when you’re older?
A massage therapist...

Have you ever wanted to be a foreign exchange student?
YESH!

Do you have an ipod?
Yes.

Do you take naps?
Sometimes.

Where was the last place you went to?
Savers.

Have you ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

do you have any pets? (if so, what kind)
4 cats, 1 dog, 1 bunny, a shit load of chickens.

Do you curse?
All the damn time. xD

What is bothering you right now?
A lot.

What is a next upcoming event that you’re excited about?
Sunday, Cannibal Corpse with Jonathan. Only we would go to metal concerts for a date. xD

Do you text people that are sitting next to you?
Yeah, I do.

Have you ever been in a food eating contest?
No.

Have you ever been in a car accident?
Yep, last February, pretty bad too... ruined my mini-van o.o

Have you ever ate dog food?
No.

Have you ever performed on stage?
Loads of times. I went to an Arts school. xD

Have you ever ate raw eggs?
...in cookie dough, brownie/ cake batter...

Do you live in the moment?
More or less.

Do you take long showers?
Yeah.

Are you religious?
Not really.

Are you dramatic?
At times.

Have you ever ran through a drive thru?
Why would I do that.