Proposal related wonders...

As promised a much happier post this time around. As anyone who reads this blog knows, Jon and I got engaged back in March. However, at the time, we didn't have a ring. Well, we finally found one we loved. So when it came last week, he couldn't wait to re-propose and get the damn thing on my finger. So we went out to one of our favorite restaurants and he re-proposed to me. It was really sweet. We both ended up crying and being all sappy. On the way home, we couldn't figure out why we were such saps about it. The only thing we could come up with is that it was that it was an actual proposal this time around. He actually got on one knee, had a ring, and asked me. Which makes sense. It makes it more real.




Now this story has a slight bitter bit to it. The proposal happened last week, on Friday. So, I've had the ring for a little over a week. We noticed that the Rhodium plating of the black gold was coming off already. Now, after doing some research we found that it was pretty common, especially if the plating process was faulty. So it was very likely that was the problem. I had made sure specifically not to wash my hands with it on, use heavy cleaners, or anything like that. Anything that might destroy the integrity of the ring. Yet, the plating was coming off in less than a week. We had to call the jeweler and see what could be done. They offered to completely re-plate it again and see if it would help. But we ultimately opted to exchange it for the white gold version of the same style ring. So now it's a waiting game of them getting the old ring back, and them sending the new one to us. It feels so weird to not be able to wear my ring. I know its only been a week since I got it, but my finger feels so naked now.

The original ring

What the new ring shall be

Here's hoping that it is sent to us with great haste, and we have no problems with the new one. So overall, there is a happy ending to the whole story overall. ^.^   Well, dearies. I shall be off. Toodles for now.

Mishaps and ramblings of finding a wedding gown

So this happened... a while ago. But I thought that maybe those who read this, might enjoy this little slide show of the gowns I tried on with my bridesmaids and mum present, that didn't quite make the cut. ^.^



FYI, for those who are going to ask, I am not posting a photo of the gown I did chose. Not here, not on Facebook, or on Instagram. Sorry. You'll have to wait until the wedding, or until I post wedding pictures on here to see it. Sorry about your luck. Lol.

I will say though that experience of finding a wedding gown is not something I want to go through again. Most of the gowns come in sizes 8-12... and they already run small. So basically 90% of the gowns were either too small and I couldn't really get a feel for them, or I couldn't even try them on. the gowns that I did get to try on were generally much too big on me. And sadly, I've noticed that a lot of the gowns for larger women are quite frumpy, and it's actually almost hurtful. Like why can't I feel and look as beautiful as a thinner/ fitter woman? Thank you society for being stupid.

I thought I'd at least give you guys a glimpse into what my adventures in finding a wedding gown were like. So there you go. My mishaps and ramblings about the whole ordeal. ^.^

Jeez, this ended up being a lot longer than expected.

Ok, time for a slight rant. Yes, I know the last one was kind of a rant too, however, there are a few things I NEED to get off my chest. And this is MY blog, so I'll do what I want. xD

1) I love how people claim to be your friend, and have been/ were your friend for many years. Then all of the sudden they outcast you. Maybe not in the most literal sense, but you definitely feel it. They gradually stop talking to you, and then when you try to talk to them, your message can go as long as two weeks with no answer. However, when you do get to talk to this person, they swear up and down that they are still your friend. You forgive them and you talk for a few days, and then it goes back to utter silence from the other party. Nice little game, isn't it? NOT. Do they not realize that the phone and Facebook work both ways? That they don't have to wait for you to message them to talk. Apparently not. It's actually incredibly hurtful. And then after oh, I don't know, a month or even longer, they pop back in, send small little message and you answer back... and then hear nothing back at all again. Awesome. Seriously people, why should I have to put all the effort into a friendship that obviously this other person wants nothing to do with anymore?

2) Kind of ties in to number one. People who blame me for the failings of our friendship. Because I moved to Columbus.... to be with the man I love with all my heart... and to start a life of my own, away from home. Get a grip. I did not abandon you in any way, shape, or form. I did it for me, what was best for me... it had nothing to do with you. The fact that you actually think I abandoned you is kind of sad. I mean really? C'mon, you're an adult, so you say, I think you know better than to assume I abandoned you. Especially when I made EVERY effort to keep in touch with you when I did finally move. I got none of that in return, just the knowledge that I was being ignored and at the time didn't know why. So in essence, who really abandoned who in this situation?

3) Now this next topic may seem a little harsh, but it needs to be said. Cancer. I do not personally know how hard the fight with cancer is. However, I do know many people that have fought it, whether they won their battle or not, I know how it affected these people. It's hard, it's exhausting, both mentally and physically on both the patient, but their family and friends too. Now, that being said. I get that people are proud of the fight that they won/ or are fighting. However, when that becomes the ONLY thing you post about, it becomes kind of annoying. The whole pity me act... kinda old. And then when they say that they are better than others because they've beaten cancer, or deserve more things in life than others.... I'm calling bullshit. I may not have had to fight cancer, but damn it I've had to fight other hardships in my life that are just as mentally or physically scarring in many ways. Secondly, when you go on Facebook and beg for money and/ or gifts saying you deserve them because you beat cancer... again calling bullshit. You are a grown woman of forty, with a job and a husband... you can buy your own tattoos, and jewelry now, or have him do it, whatever floats your boat. Put on your big girl panties and grow up. I'm not saying that we shouldn't celebrate people who have beaten cancer, not saying that at all. It's when the "celebration" turns into an every ten minute ordeal on Facebook, or other social media sites... dear god, please, just stop it.

4) This is a pretty common topic in society. Body shaming. Basically it's discriminating between body types. Saying that one (skinny for example), is better than the other ( being larger/ curvier)... or vice versa. It's disgusting. No body type is better than the other. All bodies are beautiful. From rail thin to large and curvy, they're all beautiful. And this doesn't just go for women's bodies, I think when it comes to body shaming that people forget that men's bodies get body shamed too. It's just like saying that one race is better than the other. Except, you wouldn't say that in public would you? No. Didn't think so. Because you'd be labeled as a racist. And we just couldn't live with that sort of social stigma, now could we? So, how is that any different from what people do when it comes to body shaming? There is no difference, none at all. We need to educate people that all body types are beautiful, instead of writing them off as unattractive, and alienating them.

I think that's about it for now. I promise the next post will be a happier one... I swear. ^.^

Sorry, but not sorry...

So I have a small rant to deal with here. I'm planning a wedding, I assume my readers know this. I got engaged, so the next logical thing is to start planning a wedding. Right? ...Right.

That being said, I have to keep in mind that my parents want to pay for this event, minus the wedding gown, I flat out told them I would be paying for that, so that I get the complete and final say in that. So like I said, keeping in mind that my parents are paying for it, I want to keep the cost as low as possible. One way to do this is to have a very small wedding, and by small, I mean less than 100 people. Jon and I just want close friends and family, that is all. No people we barely know, no people who are for lack of a better term, Facebook friends. I can't do it, I can't invite every person we know, it would cost a fortune.

I don't want my parents to break the bank on this event. Yes, I know that it's supposed to be a grand affair, it's supposed to be beautiful, it's supposed to be about Jon and I, but I would feel horrible to make my family pay a fortune for it. I'm not that materialistic as that.

What Jon and I decided, please read that again, it distinctly says Jon AND I . We made the decision to only invite our close family, and closest friends. That being said, that means that there are a few people who will  be invited, but not their significant other. Mostly because Jon and I don't know said significant other, and guess what? A wedding is so not the time or place to get to know your friend's significant other, it's just not. No amount or arguing, complaining, or whining about it is going to change that. I'd say that I'm sorry that these particular people are not and will not be invited, but I'm not and neither is Jon. Because, again, it is OUR wedding. If you want to invite 300 people to YOUR wedding, then you do that; however, I will not be guilt tripped into inviting these people that we don't know to a wedding.

I think that people assume that we are singling them out and being "mean" to them and their significant other. And to be honest, it is nothing of the sort. It all boils down to the cost and the lack of a true connection/ friendship with these people. I'm not going to feel sorry for that, I'm just not. If you're going to take this as a personal vendetta against you and your significant other, that's your prerogative. To each, his own, as it were.

What I love even more about this, is that people who were so set on being there, because they are so happy for us, because they are a close friend and wanted to share in such an important day in my life have since changed their tune. Now that it is known that only very close friends and family will be invited, they no longer want to come. I'm the bad guy for planning the wedding of Jon's and my dreams. Is that so wrong? Apparently the answer must be yes, I mean if I'm offending these people so much. Last I checked, I never told anyone else how to plan their wedding, and never once complained if my significant other was not invited, and neither did Jon. we understand with the economy it just not frugal to invite everyone and their mother to your wedding, especially not for a budget wedding.

And please note, we aren't just inviting our friends and not their significant other, I can tell you right now, my younger brother is invited, however his little girlfriend is not. Granted, yes there are reasons that she is not invited. Mostly because there is some serious tension and dislike between my family and her's, but that is neither here nor there. I'm just stating there we're not just doing it to friend's, we're doing it to family too. It's not anything against anyone, we have a budget and we HAVE to stick to it. End of story. No ifs, ands, or buts. Not sorry. Get over it.  I'll be hurt, not gonna lie, I want my close friends and family there, but if you decide not to come to our wedding, your loss, not mine. I will have a wonderful wedding with the people who truly care about us and that is all I have to say about it. The end. 

I've missed doing these apparently.

1. Are looks important in a relationship? I can't lie and say they're not... anyone who says they're not is lying.
2. Are relationships ever worth it? Ayup
3. Are you a virgin? No
4. Are you in a relationship? I am, and I'm engaged too.
5. Are you in love? I am, madly in love.
6. Are you single this year? NOPE
7. Can you commit to one person? I can, and I am.
8. Describe your crush He's perfect, literally perfect in every way for me.
9. Describe your perfect mate Jonathan
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope, doesn't exist.
11. Do you ever want to get married? I do. And I am, next autumn
12. Do you forgive betrayal? Depends on the situation.
13. Do you get jealous easily? I can
14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Jon
15. Do you have any piercings? Yep, all in my ears
16. Do you have any tattoos? Nope, not yet.
17. Do you like kissing in public? Mhm
20. Do you shower every day? I try to, but at least every other day for sure.
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I know Jon does
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Jon might be if he's not completely focused on work
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes.
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I'll be married next autumn
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I am in a relationship
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yep, yep
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Not that I know of
28. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes v.v
29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No, could never do that to another person
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Nope, never truly considered it.
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yesh
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? ...yeah...
33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Only one, just Jon.
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Nope, not my kind of thing.
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Jon's older than me, so yeah.
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yep.
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Yeah, surprisingly
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Mhm
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yeah
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? I have, I love doing that sort of thing
41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yes, of course
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Depends on the situation, usually not very long
43. How long was your longest relationship? This one... and it's the forever relationship too.
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? Including Jon... 4
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? Like romantically kiss... just Jon
46. How many times did you have sex last year? I lost count a long time ago
47. How old are you? 22 going on 23
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I'd be too heartbroken to say anything
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? EVERYTHING
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Sure, it's been long enough that the apology would be nice.
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Jon
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? A few people, doesn't matter why anymore
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Not that I know of, or care enough about to care if they are...
54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yep, dick.
55. Share a relationship story.  Jon's and my first date was to a metal concert, Dethklok to be exact.
56. State 8 facts about your body --Freckles, red hair, chubby/ dimpled, small hands, brown eyes, oddly shaped, we have a love/hate relationship, pale skin.... yay!
57. Things you want to say to an ex ... I no longer have anything to say to asshat.
58. What are five ways to win your heart? Have a sense of humor, listen and actually listen, talk about books, or nerdy things, give awesome hugs, put up with my goofy randomness.
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? There's 11.5 years between Jon and I.
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Smile, and eyes.
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Whatever Jon does... it's all pretty damn sexy. xD
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?  I guess it's the general idea of sex, is what I'd go with
64. What is your definition of cheating? Any physical or mental straying from your partner
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? No telling
66. What is your favourite roleplay? .... again, not telling
67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Metal concert, and food after, going to the movies, taking a walk, or just sitting at home with one another.
68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight.
69. What turns you off? Douche-bags, overly cocky guys, etc.
70. What turns you on? Emm, I feel like I keep answering the same response... Jon xD
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I don't know
72. What words do you like to hear during sex? The normal sounds... sighs and moans...
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I like getting flowers, or having meals made for me...
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? I dunno
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Jon proposed... I'd say that's pretty damn sweet.
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? I've gotten Jon some really awesome concert tickets and sappy cards, letters, and poems. xD
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? Age is just a number.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret? I don't know...
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Probably when Jessica ( Jon's cousin) was showing off her engagement ring, and I don't have one yet. Was a little jealous.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Earlier today
81. Who are five people you find attractive? Jon, Viggo Mortensen, Jonathan Rhys-Meyers, Gerard Butler, and Kit Harrington
82. Who is the last person you hugged? Jon
83. Who was your first kiss with? .... Nope, not going there
84. Why did your last relationship fail? He was a dick... and it took me way too long to realize it, and he hurt me more than anyone else ever has.
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? Part of the back story to #84... allow to be blunt... NEVER again...