27 January, 2013

Eh.. bored... again.

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Ayup
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Taken
3: What if I told you that you were pretty? I'd probably say you were lying... or being way too nice.
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? YES v.v
5: Are you interested in anyone right now? I am
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Meh, nothing really
7: Do you want to be single? No
8: Did you go out or stay in last night? Stayed in
9: How late did you stay up last night? Emm, haven't even been to bed yet.
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? A while ago, and I brushed it off as nothing... obviously it wasn't nothing since I'm dating the person now.
11: Last three things you had to drink? Coffee, Cherry-Cola, Water
12: Have you pretended to like someone? I have
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? A few times
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Ayup
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? It can be, especially if I really loved/cared for the person
16: Think back five months ago, were you single? Yes
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? Shoveling snow
18: Hold hands with anyone this week? Nope
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Yeah, I could. Not a huge drinker anyway.
20: What would you name your future daughter? Evangeline
21: Do you miss anyone? Ayup
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? No
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? Nope
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Yesh, very good at it. Drives people crazy to be honest.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yesh
26: Who did you last see in person? Joshua
27: Are you listening to music right now? Always xD
28: What is something you currently want right now? Of course
29: What is the last thing you said out lot? "Oh, for fuck's sake!"
30: How is your heart lately? It's beating and healthy...
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Occasionally
32: Are you wearing socks? Mhm
33: What do people call you? Rach, Rachy, Spaz, Little Dove, Duckie, or Artie.
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Ayup ^-^
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? Of course there are
36: Who did you last share a bed with? Jonathan
37: Did you do something bad today? Other than not going to bed at all... no
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? This morning
39: Do you get stressed out easily? Ayup
40: Will you sing today? Mhm
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Many, many times
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? Jonathan, Marti, or Jess
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? Nope
44: What are you listening to right now? The Poet and the Pendulum- Nightwish
45: What is wrong with you right now? I'm cold, lonely, and feel like utter shite...
46: What is on your wrists right now? Nothing at all for once
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? Cannibal Corpse concert
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? Both xD
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? I do now and then, just because I'm horribly sappy like that
50: Are you a good artist? Pfft, unless it's music, or cooking... no
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? Ayup
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? Absolutely not
53: Ever been on a golf cart? Yesh
54: Do you have trust issues? Ayup
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? Jonathan
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? Emm... I'm sure I do somewhere
57: Do you use chap stick? Occasionally, but only when I absolutely have to use it.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? Many times
59: Do you have a little sister? Emm, Marti is technically a few months younger than me... so yesh? xD
60: Have you ever been to New York? Not that I recall
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yep
63: What were you doing at midnight last night? Talking to Jonathan, watching The Borgias and reading Tortured Souls- The Legend of Primordium
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Nope
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? There are 3-4 that can
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yesh
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Nope v.v
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? With someone
69: Will next Friday be a good one? Yesh, Jon will be here ^-^

18 January, 2013

Don't ask xD

 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? I would again, yesh x3
 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Nope, haven't spoken to him in about a week... maybe longer.. idk
 3. Have you taken someones virginity? No.
 4. Is trust a big issue for you? Yes.
 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? Last weekend.
 6. What are you excited for? Emm... the possibility of next weekend. xD
 7. What happened tonight? Same thing that happens pretty much every night in the Bond house... NOTHING
 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Eh, depends on how bad they are. xD
 9. Is confidence cute? Mhm.
 10. What is the last beverage you had? Mountain Dew
 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Eh... one.
 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? I own a few pairs.
 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Sit at home more than likely.
 14. What are you going to spend money on next? MBLEX  (Massage Therapy licensure test for those of you who don't know)
 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? Yesh ^///^
 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? People always change, I'm sure something about me will change in the next 3 months
 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Jon, Martika, and Jess
 18. The last time you felt broken? Eh... Truly broken... probably over the summer.
 19. Have you had sex today?I wish >.<
 20. Are you starting to realize anything? Who my true friends are.
 21. Are you in a good mood? I am
 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? I'd honestly love to do that.
 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? Bio father's? Yesh... But dad's... no xD
 24. What do you want right this second? Jon ... and mozzarella sticks would be nice too.
 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? I wouldn't be able to say anything, I'd be too heartbroken
 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Ayup
 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh? Probably not
 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Eh... something on TV...
 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Yesh
 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? Depends on the situation
 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy/girl you were talking to? Good god, no
 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? Yesh, and they are reciprocated
 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? Nope... I love the fizzy goodness
 34. Listening to? Make Them Suffer- Cannibal Corpse
 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? On occasion
 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? At home...
 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope, tis lust
 38. Who did you last call? Jon
 39. Who was the last person you danced with? Eh, in a sense, it was Jon...
 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because I love him and he was leaving...
 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Ages ago
 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? I did
 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Many times
 44. Do you tan in the nude? I'm ginger... I don't tan...
 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? NO
 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? All the time
 47. Who was the last person to call you? Father
 48. Do you sing in the shower? Ayup... actually sound decent then xD
 49. Do you dance in the car? I do
 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Ayup
 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? High School
 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Nope
 53. Is Christmas stressful? Yep...
 54. Ever eat a pierogi? Eat them? I'm Polish... I can make them! xD
 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Peach
 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Doctor, Nuclear Physicist, Teacher, Author
 57. Do you believe in ghosts? Sure
 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? A lot actually
 59. Take a vitamin daily? Yep
 60. Wear slippers? Sometimes
 61. Wear a bath robe? Eh, rarely
 62. What do you wear to bed? Usually nothing... or a t-shirt if I have to.
 63. First concert? Eddie Money
 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? I shop at all three, but prefer Target and Walmart
 65. Nike or Adidas? ....neither
 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos
 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts...
 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? I don't have one... whiney ninny of a singer she is xD
 69. Ever take dance lessons? Pfft... no. I can't dance to save my life
 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? No, I just want him to do what he loves
 71. Can you curl your tongue? Yesh
 72. Ever won a spelling bee? Yes
 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes
 74. What is your favorite book? I have to many favourites, but I will give you one that I can read over and over again and never tire of "Gone with the Wind"
 75. Do you study better with or without music? With
 76. Regularly burn incense? Ayup.
 77. Ever been in love? Yesh
 78. Who would you like to see in concert? Iron Maiden, Dream Theater, Boston, Kamelot, 3 Doors Down (Again), Halestorm, Nightwish, Napalm Death, FinnTroll...  There are soooo many xD
 79. What was the last concert you saw? In Flames, Sylosis, Lamb of God, and Cannibal Corpse
 80. Hot tea or cold tea? Both
 81. Tea or coffee? Again both
 82. Favorite type of cookie? I love custard cremes, but they're hard to find here... so Oreos!
 83. Can you swim well? Yep
 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? ...yep
 85. Are you patient?.... I can be
 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ
 87. Ever won a contest? Yesh
 88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nope
 89. Which are better black or green olives? Both xD
 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Kinda need it. The chemistry can be there emotionally... but you also need to for lack of a better way of putting it "test it before you buy it"... you need that compatibilityt  as well as the emotional one.
 91. Best room for a fireplace? Living room
 92. Do you want to get married? Yesh
 93. I love you.  .....eh... thank you o.o?

14 January, 2013

Updatey-Survey thing.... again

1. Are looks important in a relationship? For me? They are not of huge importance, though they do figure in.
2. Are relationships ever worth it? Yesh
3. Are you a virgin? No. I am not.
4. Are you in a relationship? Yes
5. Are you in love? Yes
6. Are you single this year? No
7. Can you commit to one person? Yes
8. Describe your crush- Tall, gingery curly hair, blue eyes, and scruffy...
9. Describe your perfect mate- Eh, see above mentioned...
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, tis lust
11. Do you ever want to get married? Yes
12. Do you forgive betrayal? I do, but after so many times no
13. Do you get jealous easily? I do at times, yeah
14. Do you have a crush on anyone? I do
15. Do you have any piercings? Seven... all in the ears xD
16. Do you have any tattoos? No, but one or two I've thought about getting
17. Do you like kissing in public? Sure
20. Do you shower every day? Usually
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I don't think, I know xD
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I can only think of one person who would be
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Can and have... it's the other person who has always seemed to have that issue
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Here's hoping xD
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I am in a relationship...
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yesh
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Not that I know of
28. Have you ever been cheated on? In every past relationship except one. v.v
29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No, I know how badly it hurts and I refuse to put anyone else through that
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Nope
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yes
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Yes
33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yes
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? No
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Often xD
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yes
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Ayup
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Mhm x3
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yesh >.<
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Pathetically I will admit, yesh...I have
41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yesh
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? At this point.... it doesn't take long at all.
43. How long was your longest relationship? Almost 2 years
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? Including Jon... 5
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012? Romatically... 1
46. How many times did you have sex last year? Not at all
47. How old are you? 21
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I'd be utterly heartbroken, I don't think I'd be able to say anything.
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? I have so many favourite things... but one that comes to mind is... HUGS! He gives the absolute best hugs
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? I doubt that I would, he's one of two that seriously fucked me up. v.v
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yesh
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Yesh, and for reasons I'm not saying o.o
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Ayup
54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yesh
55. Share a relationship story. Hmm, I'll keep it simple and poorly detailed... Jon and I had our first date at a death metal concert. xD
56. State 7 facts about your body---- Curvy, lots of freckles, kinda short, birthmark on my right shoulder blade, very ticklish, not always happy with it, I guess it's cuddly,
57. Things you want to say to an ex? Gah... again! *zips lips* I've been thru this like 4 times now... you're just going to get the same link every time
58. What are five ways to win your heart? Awesome hugs, confidence ( don't misconstrue that with cockiness), general common interests, do sweet/goofy things with me/ for me etc. and simply love me for me.
59. What do you look like? ME >.<
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 11 years
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Eyes
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Emm, Idk... I'll get back to you on that
63. Was your first time enjoyable? Surprisingly very enjoyable. xD
64. What is your definition of cheating? Being mentally or physically unfaithful to your partner.
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Not going into detail, don't think any of my readers want to read about that... sorry xD
66. What is your favourite roleplay? Don't have one atm
67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Kinda already had it, going to a concert. Emm, only other thing I can think of would be a nice dinner, leading into a walk in a park under the stars kinda thing. x3
68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight
69. What turns you off? Cockiness, foot-in- mouth syndrome, Narcissism, general lack of care for anyone but themselves and their needs/ wants
70. What turns you on? Confidence, authority, compassion, goofiness
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I'm keeping that to myself. xP
72. What words do you like to hear during sex? Moaning and the normal stuff like "Yes", "Oh, god" etc >////<
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I want to get flowers just because it's Tuesday, or because they miss me xD
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? I honestly don't know...
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Em, just always being there for me, and always having a hug ready for me when I need/want one at this point.
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for your significant other? You'd have to ask him o.o
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? Age is only a number, as long as both are happy consenting adults, I don't see an issue. Also, I'm slightly biased because there is a 11yr age gap between Jon and I.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret? Why would I tell you? Silly survey, tis a secret.
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Eh, haven't really. At least not lately, no reason to.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Last night
81. Who are five people you find attractive? Jonathan, Gerard Butler, Corey Taylor, David Tennant, and Terrance Zdunich
82. Who is the last person you hugged? Jonathan
83. Who was the last person you kissed? Jonathan
84. Why did your last relationship fail? Please don't ask... way too complicated
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? I have, but I won't do it again.

And this is what happens when I'm bored...

How did you meet the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Met at a family function ages ago

When did you last leave your house? Where did you go and why?
- I left for Columbus on Friday to spend the weekend with Jon.

The person you miss turns up at your door now; what do you do?
- Tackle-rape him... yeah... that... sounds like a good idea. xD

Who was the last person, outside of family, that you were talking with? Do you 100% trust that person?
- Well, since Jess and Marti are family... it'd be Jon

Can you remember the last time you changed your mind about something? Do you know why you changed your mind?
- I change my mind constantly. xP

When did you last see the person you love/like? When will you next see them?
-Literally, an hour ago before he left. Two weeks from now hopefully.

You’ve just taken a pregnancy test and it’s positive. Your reaction?
- Freak out. Take another test and possibly 2-3 more after that too.... curse condoms for failing miserably, then call Jon and freak out again, because it'd definitely be partly his fault and he should know. Yeah, that sounds about right. xD

Are you attracted to the last person that Facebook messaged you?
- No, at least not like that. Sorry sissy xD

Has anyone ever accused you of trying to steal their boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Nope, don’t think so.

Does your best friend smoke cigarettes?
- Yesh.

Did your last received text message have a smiley face in it?
- Nope.

Do you listen to your parents, or do you just do what you want?
- I listen to them generally as they don’t really say no to anything and I trust them to just be like looking out for me.

Have your parents ever tried to talk to you about things like sex and contraception?
- Yesh, and it was more awkward for them that it was for me.

Who were your closest friends 3 years ago? Do you still speak to any of them?
- Jess, Jon and Mary. Emm, Jon and Jess... Mary can go f*ck herself for all I care. xD

You message someone on Facebook and they don’t reply. Does that bother you?
- Yes. I hardly ever message people first for fear of rejection so if I build up the courage to do so and they don’t reply I’d hate it. xD

Find your last text message from the opposite sex. Can you tell us what it says, or is the content too personal?
- "Don't worry, I'll be sure to text you as soon as I get home sweetheart. I love you" - Jon

How about your last Facebook message from the opposite sex, what does that say?
"Night Rachy x" - Kas

Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind atm? Do you think that person will be thinking about you too?
- Umm, yeah. And I wouldn't doubt it.

You find out that your last ex is in a relationship with someone else, and it’s very serious. In fact, they’re planning to get married. Your reaction?
- I'd be happy for him. He deserves to find someone and be happy.

What colour are the eyes of the last person that put their arms around you?
- Blue

Are you attracted to the last person you held hands with?

Be honest, do you think you’re good enough for the person you love/like? If not, why not?
- I don't think I am. But I never think I'm good enough for anyone.

Has the last person you texted ever seen you cry?
- Yes.

Do you know the starsign of the last person you kissed?
- Aries.

Do you think you will kiss someone tonight?
- I already did. xD

What was on your mind before you went to bed last night? And what was on your mind when you woke up this morning?
- Emm, how much I like being cuddled. And again how much I like being cuddled, among a lot of less than wholesome thoughts. xD

Think about the last person that made you cry. How would you feel if you never saw that person again?
- I'd be rather hurt, I mean he is my father after all.

Do you have any possessions that you’re very attached to, and you’d be absolutely devastated if you damaged or lost them?
- Yes, probably a few, I get attached to things easily.

Think about the last conversation you had with someone else, face to face or online. Who initiated the conversation? What did you talk about? How did you feel while you were talking to that person?
- It was with Jon, I did... a ton of things, and calm, understood, and happy.

What’s the worst thing that someone has ever done to you, and you still forgave them? Why did you forgive them?
- Just gonna say, June 2012... . I forgave them because our friendship meant more to me than the hurt and such.

Have you done anything in the past week that you’re now embarrassed about?
- Yesh.

Who was the last person you talked to, whose name started with a letter K? What did you talk about?
- Keanu... my graduation ceremony.

Has anyone ever told you that they would always love you? Do you think that person meant it?
- Yesh. In a way, yeah I think they did.

Have you ever told anyone that you would always love them? Did you mean it?
- Yesh, I don't throw that sort of thing around and not mean it.

Do any of your recent text messages or Facebook messages have hearts in them?
- Nope.

Say you just randomly got bored of sitting at your computer and got up and went out, where would you be most likely to go?
- Bookstore, kidnap Jess, just drive around aimlessly.

If the last person you texted was walking out of your life, would you chase after them?
- Yesh.

What was the last reason you laughed?
- Being tickled .

Who was the last person to call you beautiful, sweet, or cute?
- Jon.

Who was the last person you had an argument with? What was it about? Did you come to any kind of compromise?
-  Father. Stupid shit. Yesh..

Can you remember the last time you couldn’t have something you really wanted? What was the reason?
- I don’t really know tbh.

What colour are the eyes of the last person that told you they loved you?
- Blue.

What’s the naughtiest thing you’ve ever done, and you got away with it?
- I... emm.... I shouldn't say, it's horrible x3

Who was the last person of the opposite sex to make you smile? Are you attracted to that person?
- Jon, and yesh.

You’re awake at 2am talking to someone, who is it?
- Martika, Jess, or Jon.

How do you think your best friend would react if you kissed his/her ex?
- She’d be really pissed off and probably never speak to me purely because he was a dick and respect for me would me lost probably.

Who was the last person you met, that you found attractive? Did you do anything about it?
- Family function. And I'm dating him. xD

Have you eaten any of your favourite foods today?
- Animal crackers.

To finish, look through your text message inbox, find a message from each person mentioned, and tell us what it says.
One of your parents - Something about my gran being in the hospital
One of your siblings - "Good night. I love u"
An aunt/uncle - Haven’t text any.
A cousin - Don’t text them.
Your ex - Eh, don't have any texts from Kas
Your best friend - "G'night sissy" Or something like that.
Someone you miss - Don't worry, I'll be sure to text you as soon as I get home sweetheart. I love you":
Someone you find attractive - See above... it's the same person xP 

08 January, 2013

Yet another rant

Well, it's been a few weeks since I did a good rant. So guess what?! Tis time for a new one.

People who are dead set on the world being against them. "Oh, everyone HATES me!"  Fuck that, not everyone hates your happy ass, get that notion out of your head right now. If there are people in this world that admire people like Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini,  and Lenin... I'm sure there is someone in this world that likes you too. You still have a fighting chance. Also, that being said, do NOT...I repeat do NOT come to me looking for pity, or looking for someone to join in your pity party; not gonna happen. I've got better and much more important things to do than pity you. Yeah, I may relate sometimes to what you're saying, but I don't ALWAYS feel like that. I find things that make my time worth while, I spend time with people that I like and who like me as I am. I don't have to worry about being judged, and therefore I don't have to deal with the feeling of "Oh, I'm not worth it", or "Oh, no one will like me".  This kinda goes along with a previous rant about how I didn't understand why people wouldn't help themselves when they are more than capable of doing so. Again, still don't get it. Why would you allow yourself to be around people who bring you down as much as they obviously do? Answer- "Misery likes company.", simple as that. T-T

Secondly, I don't need to be constantly reminded that I am not the most fit girl in the world. In fact, I know that I'm so far from fit, it's not even funny. But guess what? I eat healthy, I drink little to no soda, I don't smoke, I get out and do physical things, and more importantly I am happy with my self. I like me. Every bit of chub, every curve, every dimple, all of it. All your talk about how I should lose weight in order to have a guy like me, to be prettier, to be wanted by someone... is fucking bullshit. You may not like the way I look, and think that I need to change, but I'm good with how I am, and my boyfriend more than loves the way I am.  So stop trying to bring me down with your insecurities, it's not worth your effort, because it no longer bothers me. After 21, almost 22 years of being ridiculed for not being what society deems "perfect", I'm done. I'm not letting any of those things get to me. You don’t like me as I am… you can go screw yourself, or something of a like degree of exiting.

Next up, uni. Yes, I finished it… no, I am currently not employed because I still don’t have everything I need to meet the required criteria to be employed in Ohio. Slowly getting there, but it’s hard to collect that much money when I don’t have a job. So please, those of you who keep getting on my back about when I’ll be getting a job as a massage therapist… just stop. It’s just one of those things, that’ll happen when it happens. Hopefully sooner rather than later, but for now it is what it is. Not much else to say here, other than back the hell up, and let me figure out what I need to do, in my own time. 

Emm, let’s go with drinking next… or the general lack of in my case. I decided ages ago to drink far less than most people my age, not that I drank much before that any way. But none the less, I have cut back even from that. I probably drink once a month, and it’s with the same person. People as why I've decided to drink less, and when I tell them they look at me like I’m stupid or something. For those of you who don’t know why I decided to do this, it’s because Jonathan is a recovering alcoholic, he has one year sobriety under his belt. I being who I am, I don’t want to make things awkward for him. I don’t want to cause any type of temptation in that sense. So I never drink when he’s around, and I rarely drink as is. To be honest, New Year’s may have been the last time I drink. I like alcohol, don’t get me wrong, but I've found you can have just as much fun, if not more when you’re not under any kind of influence.

Family, isn't that something that is supposed to stay banded together and be there for one another? Apparently in my family, there are at least three people that are dead set on making everyone’s lives miserable and turning everyone against each other over utterly stupid bullshit. Excuse my language, but that is exactly what it is… BULLSHIT. They wonder why I have little to do with the family functions anymore, why I’d rather spend holidays and such with Jon’s family…. It’s because everything turns into a yelling contest, or a fight. All of it over stupid crap like, my lack of job, my parents not being “good” parents because my brothers left home when they legally could, politics ( a completely taboo topic in our house at this point), and other such pointless topics. And having someone tell my mother and I that we should watch out because my father might flip his lid and apparently kill us on an open forum like Facebook, it just fucked up. No one has the right to say that, ever. End of story. I don't care how much you disagree with someone, or the way they raise their kids... telling his wife and daughter that they should in essence fear for their lives around him is just a selfish and immoral thing to do. 

According to my grandmother, I should only be listening to Christian Radio stations, that there is no way a girl like me (Whatever the fuck that is supposed to me >.<) should be interested in metal, rock n’ roll, or anything that is not Christian music. First off, just to point this out… I am AGNOSTIC….that is not the same thing as Christian. Though in my grandmother’s head, anyone who is not Christian… is Atheist. And because I’m not Christian, in her eyes, I need saving before I go to hell. Does she not know that gingers don’t have souls, and therefore there is no way for my eternal soul to be damned to hell? xD  Ah, well... she's always got something to be disappointed in me for. If it's not my lack of sharing her same religion, it's that I didn't go to nursing school (news flash... I do intend to go back and do that too one say), that I wasted my time in one relationship only to have it fail and blow up in my face, that I'm not "healthy/ thin" enough, Not ever finding anyone to want me, or her complete abhorrence to my current relationship simply because of the age difference.   

And lastly, this seems to be a reoccurring topic of my rants, and will be until it sinks into certain people’s head. Whether certain family members, or friends like it… I am in a very happy relationship with Jonathan. And I will remain as such until the time comes that he and I decide differently. Though much to all of your dismay (just those who hate the idea), I don’t see that happening any time soon, if at all. I’m more than happy with him, and that’s honestly all that should matter when it all boils down to it. Right? Or am I wrong in thinking that I should be allowed to be happy? And if being happy is with someone *gasp*  ten years older than I am is what does it… what should it matter to anyone else? Get the hell over it, move on, and leave my choices in life alone. Thank you all for the bitch fits, snide remarks, and comments about failure… but none have been taken to heart and you may promptly go fuck yourself with a razor laced dildo if you like… or take the easy way out and head for the exit. Eh, that was a little harsh, but you get the idea, I’m sure.

I think I’m done… there’s really nothing more I can say. Well, there is… but I thought I’d try to keep this one shorter than my normal rants. * whispers*  I think I failed miserably at it though. I think almost 1500 words is more than enough, not even sure if anyone reads these things. *shrugs* Oh, well. I enjoy writing them. 

03 January, 2013

Starting 2013 off right... with a survey

Did you like kissing the last person you kissed or the one before that more?
I love kissing him. x3 

Whose bed other than yours did you last lay on?
Eh... Jonathan's. o.o 

When you’re at the beach, do you swim or lay out more?

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?

Crushing on anyone new?
No one new xD 

Last text from?

When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?

Kissed someone in a vehicle?

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?

When is the next time you will kiss someone.
Next time I see Jonathan xD 

What can you not wait for?
Graduation ceremony.

Have/Would you ever use(d) the bathroom in front of someone else?
Have and would. xP

Any plans for tomorrow?
Reading and tidying up the house. 

Does anyone like you?
Since I'm dating him, I'd certainly hope he does. xD 

How do you feel about your current relationship status?
I love it. 

When did you meet the last male you texted?
Oooh…. late 2003 or early 2004 ish

Would you rather live without music or without the t.v?

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?

Think back to the last person you held hands with, have you kissed them?

Where will you be 2 hours from now?
Reading or cooking... idk

Are you more conceited or self-conscious. Be honest.
Self Conscious.

What turns you off immediately?
Ignorance, arrogance, being conceited, self-absorbed, or otherwise going about their merry way to make themselves happy with no regard to anyone else. The inability to compromise is another. 

Last person you cuddled with?

Are you currently trying to get over someone?

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?

Whose hoodie or jacket did you wear last that wasn’t yours?

2. How would you describe your fashion style? What inspires you to dress this way?
I have no fashion sense... I dress for comfort and what I like to wear.  

3. Where and when did you go on your last vacation? How was the vacation and would you go back to this place?
Emm, technically it was Scotland. Vacation was tolerable.... I'd go back, but not for the reasons I went the first time.

4. Which city do you particularly enjoy visiting? For what reasons? When is the last time you went there?
Columbus, it's so lively and upbeat. I was there the weekend before Christmas.

5. What is one of the most important lessons you’ve learned through working where you do? (If you don’t work, then through school or in general?)
Watch what you say, that's pretty much any situation to be honest.

6. What is the last sporting event you watched? Were you enthusiastically supporting either team or are you not even a sports fan?
Emm... I don't really watch sports... 

7. What is the last organization/charity you donated to or volunteered for?
MS Walk 2012 at the University of Toledo.

8. Is there a special or uncommon spelling to your name? For example, Ashleigh instead of Ashley:
Rachael, Rachelle, Rachel, Rachele... I'm sure there are more

9. Have you ever experienced a particularly bad birthday? What made it so bad?
Not really, they were all pretty decent birthdays. 

10. Who is the last person you went out to eat with and where did you go?
Jonathan, and IHOP.

11. What is the most amount of money you’ve ever found on the ground?

12. What are your favorite things to drink and when are you most likely to drink these things?
Coffee- Anytime 
Soda- Whenever I want something bubbly xD 

13. Where were you the last time you kissed someone?
Christmas Day.

14. Where do you usually do your homework or any type of work you have to do?

15. What could you change about your life right now that would make things better for you?
Find a decent paying job would be nice, and being able to afford my own place.

16. How many times have you moved in your life? Did you move far?
I've moved *counts on fingers* ... uh.... 9-10 times. Arizona, California, Tennessee, and Virginia were the farthest I moved. 

17. What type of shoes are you most likely to wear?
Vans, or some other type of skate shoe.

18. When is the last time you had your favorite flavor of ice cream?
A month ago.

19. Are you worried that you won’t be accepted into the college you want?
I'm done with college at the moment.

20. What is your ideal weather?
Spring/ Fall... cool, sunny weather. 

21. What is the last movie you saw at the theaters? What rating, out of 10, would you give it?
Les Miserables! 10/10.

22. When is the last time you went to a picnic?
Uh… July of 2011

23. Do you often take pictures with the camera on your phone?

24. Who in your extended family are you closest to?
My Aunt Carol and my Uncle David.

25. How many and what kind of pets do you own?
1 dog (Luna), 4 cats (Bast, Raa, Merlin and Socrates), 1 bunny (Ollie), and a plethora of chickens

26. Does anyone give you butterflies (nervous/happy)?


1. Is there anything happening this month that you are particularly excited for?
Hoping to here back about a few jobs, my relationship status, and getting my license (at least the process of getting it done) 

Stole it, that is all.

Last Person That…?
Made you laugh?
Saw you cry?
You went to the movies with?
You went out to dinner with?
You talked on the phone to?
Well…texted: Jessica . Actual phone call? Jonathan.

Would You Rather…?
Pierce your nose or tongue?
Ehh, since I have to pick... nose
Be serious or be funny?

Do You Prefer ..?
Flowers or candy?
Gray or black?
Color or Black and white photos?
Depends on the environment.
Sunrise or sunset?
M&Ms or Skittles?

Answer Truthfully…. ?
Do you like anyone?
Do they know it?
I'm dating him, so yeah he does know.

About me …?
What time is it?
13:27 .
Real Name?
What do you want?
A loving, lasting relationship.
How many kids do you want?
3-4 xD
What would you want to name a boy?
Jonathan Michael ( And no, it's not because of who I'm dating, I've always wanted to name one for my boys that xD )
You want to get married?
What kind of music do you like?
Anything except rap and dubstep (what the hell is that anyhow?)
Nervous Habits?
I get really quite, fidget and apparently though I tend to not notice, I bite my lip.
Are you double jointed?
Can you roll your tongue?
Can you raise one eyebrow?
Can you cross your eyes?
Do you make your bed daily?
No, not daily.... maybe once or twice a week, or if we're due to have company over.
Which shoe goes on first?
Usuallt right then left... or however I pick them up
Ever thrown something at someone?
On average, how much money do you carry with you?
….Not much. Maybe $1.25 on broke days, and $5 when I have it.
What jewelry do you wear?
Celtic knot necklace, Claddagh ring, and 3 sets of normal earrings, and one cartilage one. xD

The last month…?
Had a b/f or g/f?
Bought something?
Been kissed?
Felt stupid?
Missed someone?

Last Car ride?
Last Movie Seen?
Les Miserables.
Last time you Cried?
Last Fight?
Emm, Monday....
Person I saw?
Person I hugged?
Person I text messaged?
Person I yelled at?

E V E R ?
been arrested?
skinny dipped?
been on TV?
I ’ M W E A R I N G
1. Jeans
2. T-shirt

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
Pretty much never.
Describe your hair:
Red, curly, hip length... a curly mess over all. xD
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
Outdoors most times. Indoors when it’s cold and wet, or cold and bitter.
Do you like thunderstorms?
Are you a vegetarian?
Anything you absolutely could eat forever?
Spaghetti.... it's my go to meal xD
What is your favorite dessert?
I have several I love, but I adore peach pie... or anything else with peaches for that matter.
Have you ever been in love?
Are you in a relationship now?
Where is your cell phone?
In front of me.
Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Where did you grow up?
Born and raised a northern Ohioan.
Your life?
My life was composed in the key of f*ck. xD
Your mood?
Your summer?
Half of it was spent completely and utterly depressed and the last half was amazing.
Your favorite color(s)?
Anything dark. Purple, black, green, blue…
Last text?
SEVEN have you’s:
7. Have you ever dated someone twice?
Like broke up and then went out with them again? No.
6. Have you ever been cheated on?
5. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it?
4. Have you ever fallen in love?
3. Have you ever lost someone?
2. Have you ever been depressed?
1. Have you ever had a heartbreak?

Who are five people can tell anything to?
Jonathan, Jessica and Martika, that's about it
List FOUR things that you can’t live without right now:
Oxygen—for obvious reasons, Food….again obvious…compassion….hope.
List THREE favorite foods:
Steak, Pizza, and Peaches.
List FOUR things you’re really looking forward to:
Graduating ceremony, developing my current relationship further, making new friends, and perhaps rekindling old friendships.

Fallen out of love?
Yes v.v
Laughed until you cried?
Met someone who changed your life?
Found out who your true friends were?