Jeez, this ended up being a lot longer than expected.

Ok, time for a slight rant. Yes, I know the last one was kind of a rant too, however, there are a few things I NEED to get off my chest. And this is MY blog, so I'll do what I want. xD

1) I love how people claim to be your friend, and have been/ were your friend for many years. Then all of the sudden they outcast you. Maybe not in the most literal sense, but you definitely feel it. They gradually stop talking to you, and then when you try to talk to them, your message can go as long as two weeks with no answer. However, when you do get to talk to this person, they swear up and down that they are still your friend. You forgive them and you talk for a few days, and then it goes back to utter silence from the other party. Nice little game, isn't it? NOT. Do they not realize that the phone and Facebook work both ways? That they don't have to wait for you to message them to talk. Apparently not. It's actually incredibly hurtful. And then after oh, I don't know, a month or even longer, they pop back in, send small little message and you answer back... and then hear nothing back at all again. Awesome. Seriously people, why should I have to put all the effort into a friendship that obviously this other person wants nothing to do with anymore?

2) Kind of ties in to number one. People who blame me for the failings of our friendship. Because I moved to Columbus.... to be with the man I love with all my heart... and to start a life of my own, away from home. Get a grip. I did not abandon you in any way, shape, or form. I did it for me, what was best for me... it had nothing to do with you. The fact that you actually think I abandoned you is kind of sad. I mean really? C'mon, you're an adult, so you say, I think you know better than to assume I abandoned you. Especially when I made EVERY effort to keep in touch with you when I did finally move. I got none of that in return, just the knowledge that I was being ignored and at the time didn't know why. So in essence, who really abandoned who in this situation?

3) Now this next topic may seem a little harsh, but it needs to be said. Cancer. I do not personally know how hard the fight with cancer is. However, I do know many people that have fought it, whether they won their battle or not, I know how it affected these people. It's hard, it's exhausting, both mentally and physically on both the patient, but their family and friends too. Now, that being said. I get that people are proud of the fight that they won/ or are fighting. However, when that becomes the ONLY thing you post about, it becomes kind of annoying. The whole pity me act... kinda old. And then when they say that they are better than others because they've beaten cancer, or deserve more things in life than others.... I'm calling bullshit. I may not have had to fight cancer, but damn it I've had to fight other hardships in my life that are just as mentally or physically scarring in many ways. Secondly, when you go on Facebook and beg for money and/ or gifts saying you deserve them because you beat cancer... again calling bullshit. You are a grown woman of forty, with a job and a husband... you can buy your own tattoos, and jewelry now, or have him do it, whatever floats your boat. Put on your big girl panties and grow up. I'm not saying that we shouldn't celebrate people who have beaten cancer, not saying that at all. It's when the "celebration" turns into an every ten minute ordeal on Facebook, or other social media sites... dear god, please, just stop it.

4) This is a pretty common topic in society. Body shaming. Basically it's discriminating between body types. Saying that one (skinny for example), is better than the other ( being larger/ curvier)... or vice versa. It's disgusting. No body type is better than the other. All bodies are beautiful. From rail thin to large and curvy, they're all beautiful. And this doesn't just go for women's bodies, I think when it comes to body shaming that people forget that men's bodies get body shamed too. It's just like saying that one race is better than the other. Except, you wouldn't say that in public would you? No. Didn't think so. Because you'd be labeled as a racist. And we just couldn't live with that sort of social stigma, now could we? So, how is that any different from what people do when it comes to body shaming? There is no difference, none at all. We need to educate people that all body types are beautiful, instead of writing them off as unattractive, and alienating them.

I think that's about it for now. I promise the next post will be a happier one... I swear. ^.^

Sorry, but not sorry...

So I have a small rant to deal with here. I'm planning a wedding, I assume my readers know this. I got engaged, so the next logical thing is to start planning a wedding. Right? ...Right.

That being said, I have to keep in mind that my parents want to pay for this event, minus the wedding gown, I flat out told them I would be paying for that, so that I get the complete and final say in that. So like I said, keeping in mind that my parents are paying for it, I want to keep the cost as low as possible. One way to do this is to have a very small wedding, and by small, I mean less than 100 people. Jon and I just want close friends and family, that is all. No people we barely know, no people who are for lack of a better term, Facebook friends. I can't do it, I can't invite every person we know, it would cost a fortune.

I don't want my parents to break the bank on this event. Yes, I know that it's supposed to be a grand affair, it's supposed to be beautiful, it's supposed to be about Jon and I, but I would feel horrible to make my family pay a fortune for it. I'm not that materialistic as that.

What Jon and I decided, please read that again, it distinctly says Jon AND I . We made the decision to only invite our close family, and closest friends. That being said, that means that there are a few people who will  be invited, but not their significant other. Mostly because Jon and I don't know said significant other, and guess what? A wedding is so not the time or place to get to know your friend's significant other, it's just not. No amount or arguing, complaining, or whining about it is going to change that. I'd say that I'm sorry that these particular people are not and will not be invited, but I'm not and neither is Jon. Because, again, it is OUR wedding. If you want to invite 300 people to YOUR wedding, then you do that; however, I will not be guilt tripped into inviting these people that we don't know to a wedding.

I think that people assume that we are singling them out and being "mean" to them and their significant other. And to be honest, it is nothing of the sort. It all boils down to the cost and the lack of a true connection/ friendship with these people. I'm not going to feel sorry for that, I'm just not. If you're going to take this as a personal vendetta against you and your significant other, that's your prerogative. To each, his own, as it were.

What I love even more about this, is that people who were so set on being there, because they are so happy for us, because they are a close friend and wanted to share in such an important day in my life have since changed their tune. Now that it is known that only very close friends and family will be invited, they no longer want to come. I'm the bad guy for planning the wedding of Jon's and my dreams. Is that so wrong? Apparently the answer must be yes, I mean if I'm offending these people so much. Last I checked, I never told anyone else how to plan their wedding, and never once complained if my significant other was not invited, and neither did Jon. we understand with the economy it just not frugal to invite everyone and their mother to your wedding, especially not for a budget wedding.

And please note, we aren't just inviting our friends and not their significant other, I can tell you right now, my younger brother is invited, however his little girlfriend is not. Granted, yes there are reasons that she is not invited. Mostly because there is some serious tension and dislike between my family and her's, but that is neither here nor there. I'm just stating there we're not just doing it to friend's, we're doing it to family too. It's not anything against anyone, we have a budget and we HAVE to stick to it. End of story. No ifs, ands, or buts. Not sorry. Get over it.  I'll be hurt, not gonna lie, I want my close friends and family there, but if you decide not to come to our wedding, your loss, not mine. I will have a wonderful wedding with the people who truly care about us and that is all I have to say about it. The end. 

This may have been a mistake...

So I'm at work, and it's pretty much dead. Guess what I get to do? Basically whatever I want as long as I'm still available for calls. Meaning I get paid to sit here, write this blog, answer texts, read, or what have you. Kinda awesome. ^.^ 

Ok, maybe not as awesome at it would seem. It actually gets pretty boring with nothing to really do. I mean the down time is nice, don't get me wrong. But today is Monday, so Keanu isn't here today, it her day off. Translation, I'm here by myself, so I don't have anyone to chit-chat with. Bleh. xD 

Oh, well. It's a paycheck, I'm not going to complain too much about it. Even if info hate this job with a fiery passion, because at least I have one and I don't have to depend on my mother or father to take care of me. It's a nice feeling. 

I'm both looking forward and not looking forward to my paycheck on Friday. I missed a day and half because I was I'll and had no voice. Kinda hard to do phone sales with no voice. But I may have made up for it this past weekend, I had some damn good orders and I make commission rather than hourly. So as long as I make at least what I did last paycheck, I'll be happy. That's enough to put a down payment in a used car if I choose to this month. Or it's enough to rent the moving truck to Columbus. So many choices. 

This hasn't turned into a rambling blog at all. It's wonderful. What else were you expecting from me? Exactly! xD 

On an even more random note, dad got grandma Bond to ride on the motorcycle, it was great. 

She hates the photo, something about she's taken better pics, but we all love it. 

Emm, Jon finally got his new bass. Two very impatient weeks later. It's so pretty. xD 

Hmm, the only other things I can think of to being up would be that I got Keanu to start reading Game of Thrones, and she LOVES it. I feel awesome about that. ^.^;  Other than that, I can't really think of anything else to say right now. Don't be surprised if there are several surveys filled out on my other blog tonight. I still have 4.5 hours of my shift tonight to sit through. 

Love you all, toodles. Xoxox 

I like trains.... that is all

This is kinda going to be a rant. Sorry for that. It seems to be all I really do on here anymore. Oh well, It's my blog, I can blog about whatever the hell I want. xD

1) Why is it I do something nice for someone, and am promised payment; I always get walked all over and screwed over? I cleaned the house of a family "friend" and was promised $500 to do so, plus another $100 a month to come back a few times a month to spot clean. Needless to say, I have not been paid what is due to me. I haven't even received half of it. Then after two months of allowing these people to get their finances in order, they have the audacity to tell me that they don't spend money frivolously. I'm calling bullshit on that one. I know for a fact that EVERY time they leave the house to go out, they HAVE to but each of their three kids a new stupid toy. They are behind on rent payments, car payments, bills. And yet, they manage to have wifi, cable, iPhones and all this other unneeded crap. Yet, they can't pay for the things that are actually needed in life. The wife even told me that she'd pay me the last $20 in their account, and if their kids went hungry, then so be it. Who the fuck does that? Oh, I know... people who have no respect for themselves, others and are completely irresponsible. I honestly doubt that I'll ever see all the money they owe me, which means I'll have some lovely time spent in court with them. T-T

2) I've had several people lately tell me that I shouldn't be blogging about certain topics ever, or anymore. You know what? Screw that. I've had this blog since 2008, granted yes everything from before 2011 magically disappeared one day. But damn it, I've worked hard to somewhat keep this blog going, therefore, I shall blog about whatever the hell I want, when I want, and how I want. If you don't like that, there is an unsubscribe button.

3) I've gotten a lot of recent hate about my relationship with Jon. What the hell is that about? I mean really, do people seriously have nothing better to do? We've known one another almost 10 yrs and we've been together almost a year. Get the hell over it. Find someone else to bother.

4) The next person to tell me I need to try harder to find a job is going to get slapped. I put in applications every single day. Even on the days where I am dead tired. I babysit 3-4 days a week for 8+ hrs a day, then I come home and do the house work that no one else has time to do. I don't get paid to do any of that work, except mowing the lawn because that is actually not one of my designated tasks, that and mum/ dad both know how much sun I get when I do mow the lawn about kills my skin and causes headaches. So they "reward" me for that. Even after all that, I still after 3-4 hrs a sleep on a good night, I still wake up and apply to places, I go out and talk to people about getting jobs. So no one, unless they are me has any right at all to tell me I'm not trying hard enough.

5) I hate how much stress this whole move is causing. And what's worse, it's not even the actual move that's causing the stress. It's my father's overall reaction to it. He hates it, and because of that, he's making it a point to make everything he possibly can more difficult for me. Joy. :/

6) On a happier note... Here are these....

And I'm done.
G'night.

Yet another rant

Well, it's been a few weeks since I did a good rant. So guess what?! Tis time for a new one.

People who are dead set on the world being against them. "Oh, everyone HATES me!"  Fuck that, not everyone hates your happy ass, get that notion out of your head right now. If there are people in this world that admire people like Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini,  and Lenin... I'm sure there is someone in this world that likes you too. You still have a fighting chance. Also, that being said, do NOT...I repeat do NOT come to me looking for pity, or looking for someone to join in your pity party; not gonna happen. I've got better and much more important things to do than pity you. Yeah, I may relate sometimes to what you're saying, but I don't ALWAYS feel like that. I find things that make my time worth while, I spend time with people that I like and who like me as I am. I don't have to worry about being judged, and therefore I don't have to deal with the feeling of "Oh, I'm not worth it", or "Oh, no one will like me".  This kinda goes along with a previous rant about how I didn't understand why people wouldn't help themselves when they are more than capable of doing so. Again, still don't get it. Why would you allow yourself to be around people who bring you down as much as they obviously do? Answer- "Misery likes company.", simple as that. T-T

Secondly, I don't need to be constantly reminded that I am not the most fit girl in the world. In fact, I know that I'm so far from fit, it's not even funny. But guess what? I eat healthy, I drink little to no soda, I don't smoke, I get out and do physical things, and more importantly I am happy with my self. I like me. Every bit of chub, every curve, every dimple, all of it. All your talk about how I should lose weight in order to have a guy like me, to be prettier, to be wanted by someone... is fucking bullshit. You may not like the way I look, and think that I need to change, but I'm good with how I am, and my boyfriend more than loves the way I am.  So stop trying to bring me down with your insecurities, it's not worth your effort, because it no longer bothers me. After 21, almost 22 years of being ridiculed for not being what society deems "perfect", I'm done. I'm not letting any of those things get to me. You don’t like me as I am… you can go screw yourself, or something of a like degree of exiting.

Next up, uni. Yes, I finished it… no, I am currently not employed because I still don’t have everything I need to meet the required criteria to be employed in Ohio. Slowly getting there, but it’s hard to collect that much money when I don’t have a job. So please, those of you who keep getting on my back about when I’ll be getting a job as a massage therapist… just stop. It’s just one of those things, that’ll happen when it happens. Hopefully sooner rather than later, but for now it is what it is. Not much else to say here, other than back the hell up, and let me figure out what I need to do, in my own time. 

Emm, let’s go with drinking next… or the general lack of in my case. I decided ages ago to drink far less than most people my age, not that I drank much before that any way. But none the less, I have cut back even from that. I probably drink once a month, and it’s with the same person. People as why I've decided to drink less, and when I tell them they look at me like I’m stupid or something. For those of you who don’t know why I decided to do this, it’s because Jonathan is a recovering alcoholic, he has one year sobriety under his belt. I being who I am, I don’t want to make things awkward for him. I don’t want to cause any type of temptation in that sense. So I never drink when he’s around, and I rarely drink as is. To be honest, New Year’s may have been the last time I drink. I like alcohol, don’t get me wrong, but I've found you can have just as much fun, if not more when you’re not under any kind of influence.

Family, isn't that something that is supposed to stay banded together and be there for one another? Apparently in my family, there are at least three people that are dead set on making everyone’s lives miserable and turning everyone against each other over utterly stupid bullshit. Excuse my language, but that is exactly what it is… BULLSHIT. They wonder why I have little to do with the family functions anymore, why I’d rather spend holidays and such with Jon’s family…. It’s because everything turns into a yelling contest, or a fight. All of it over stupid crap like, my lack of job, my parents not being “good” parents because my brothers left home when they legally could, politics ( a completely taboo topic in our house at this point), and other such pointless topics. And having someone tell my mother and I that we should watch out because my father might flip his lid and apparently kill us on an open forum like Facebook, it just fucked up. No one has the right to say that, ever. End of story. I don't care how much you disagree with someone, or the way they raise their kids... telling his wife and daughter that they should in essence fear for their lives around him is just a selfish and immoral thing to do. 

According to my grandmother, I should only be listening to Christian Radio stations, that there is no way a girl like me (Whatever the fuck that is supposed to me >.<) should be interested in metal, rock n’ roll, or anything that is not Christian music. First off, just to point this out… I am AGNOSTIC….that is not the same thing as Christian. Though in my grandmother’s head, anyone who is not Christian… is Atheist. And because I’m not Christian, in her eyes, I need saving before I go to hell. Does she not know that gingers don’t have souls, and therefore there is no way for my eternal soul to be damned to hell? xD  Ah, well... she's always got something to be disappointed in me for. If it's not my lack of sharing her same religion, it's that I didn't go to nursing school (news flash... I do intend to go back and do that too one say), that I wasted my time in one relationship only to have it fail and blow up in my face, that I'm not "healthy/ thin" enough, Not ever finding anyone to want me, or her complete abhorrence to my current relationship simply because of the age difference.   

And lastly, this seems to be a reoccurring topic of my rants, and will be until it sinks into certain people’s head. Whether certain family members, or friends like it… I am in a very happy relationship with Jonathan. And I will remain as such until the time comes that he and I decide differently. Though much to all of your dismay (just those who hate the idea), I don’t see that happening any time soon, if at all. I’m more than happy with him, and that’s honestly all that should matter when it all boils down to it. Right? Or am I wrong in thinking that I should be allowed to be happy? And if being happy is with someone *gasp*  ten years older than I am is what does it… what should it matter to anyone else? Get the hell over it, move on, and leave my choices in life alone. Thank you all for the bitch fits, snide remarks, and comments about failure… but none have been taken to heart and you may promptly go fuck yourself with a razor laced dildo if you like… or take the easy way out and head for the exit. Eh, that was a little harsh, but you get the idea, I’m sure.

I think I’m done… there’s really nothing more I can say. Well, there is… but I thought I’d try to keep this one shorter than my normal rants. * whispers*  I think I failed miserably at it though. I think almost 1500 words is more than enough, not even sure if anyone reads these things. *shrugs* Oh, well. I enjoy writing them. 

I don't even know

Not really a lot to write here. I mean I lead a pretty boring life, but I suppose it could be worse. I suppose I could start off by saying that I'm excited to hear that The Hobbit is due out this week, that Jess and I intend on going to see it.... but no plans have been made, because plans fails anytime she and I make them. Hmm, I would also like to add a little section here to say that my prayers and thoughts go out to the Lightfoot family and to the Hollis family. Both of which have lost people very important to them recently, and both of them will be sorely missed. 

Found out, no Jonathan this weekend, something about the duct-work at the house. So, Christmas shopping and baking it is. Joy.... I "love" shopping this time of year. Can you tell just how excited I am by that? I love Christmas, don't get me wrong. However, I cannot stand how stupid and self-centered people become around Christmas. It's not about getting/ giving gifts, it's about spending time with your friends and family. Simple as that. Christmas has become a commercialized holiday, as have most of the others. Can't change what society has ingrained in people's minds. 

I'm going to go off on a few tangents. Huh, who'd have thought? Rachael not going off on a tangent would be more of a surprise. xD 

1) I've made the horrid mistake to re-read the A Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. Martin. Don't get me wrong I adore this series. But it's been ages since I read it and I forgot how long it is. Let me put it this way Game of Thrones is about 700 pages on it's own... the entire series at least the books that are publish add up to about 4228 pages. Yeah, that's going to be oh so much fun to re-read. 

2) I have low self-esteem already, thanks to experiences with a great many people. I've never seen myself as pretty, gorgeous, or attractive. I don't tend to believe people when they say I am, because I feel I'm not. I know I'm not thin, I never have been and to be honest, I probably never will be. I eat pretty healthy and try my best to stay away from soda/ energy drinks now, not gonna lie I do still enjoy them now and then. I don't eat out at fast food places, and I generally don't eat junk food. But lately I've had a constant reminder that I'm apparently not pretty enough or thin enough for any guy to ever take interest in me. That's what a girl needs right? Being told she isn't good enough, especially by someone who knows nothing of my life. I should just brush it off and ignore it, but it plays in in the back of my head, and sometimes I wonder if what this person say is true.

3) I don't know how many of my readers suffer from chronic migraines. But those who do, understand how truly debilitating they can be. There are days, where just because it's cloudy or rainy, you can't get up out of bed. Other days you're fine. Sometimes your head hurts so bad, it makes you nauseated and dehydrated, usually resulting in a hospital visit, IVs and pain killers... and consequently, sometimes over night stays at said hospital. It sucks that you go to a neurologist to see what's causing them.. and then have no answer. NONE at all. "Oh, it just runs in your family history. You'll grow out of them. Here's some drugs to help." Basically, "You're stuck like this... deal with it." .... Great T-T 

4) I've run out of things to talk about. I had a general idea of what I wanted to talk about and now I'm just out of ideas. I could sit here and ramble, but  that's not very interesting for any of you. So I think for now I'm done here. Before I go, I shall leave you with this... 

 Ta! 

This survey has been queued ... that is all.

Do you swear to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth?
Sure.

Where were you last night?
Depending on when this gets posted, I'm probably at Jonathan's

What is today’s date?
It''ll be December 1, 2012 when this is posted...

Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?
No idea.

When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self check-out?
Quite often yeah.

Anyone crushing on you?
Ayup.

What is your relationship status?
In a relationship.

Who do you text the most?
Jonathan, Martika, and Jess.

How do you make your money?
I give massages, odd jobs and babysit.

How do you feel right now?
Okay, bored, exhausted and hurt.

Do you look more like your mom or dad?
Neither to be honest. I look like a younger version of my great grandmother.

Are you scared of flying?
Not at all.

Is there something bothering you right now?
Several things.

If you were told you were 8 weeks pregnant what would you say?
Be confused as you kind of need to have sex to be pregnant....

Where do you wanna go for vacation?
Anywhere.

Who last sent you a text msg?
Martika.

What would you say is your favorite food?
Chocolate.

What color is the keyboard you are currently using?
Black.

Would you rather write a report or type it on a computer?
I like writing tbh but for a report type it I guess.

What color was the last jacket or hoodie you wore?
Black.

Do you receive more compliments or insults on a daily basis?
Meh, idk.

Do you own any dresses? If so, what colors are they?
I have black, white, red/ orange/ turquoise, and yellow.

Would you say you drink more pop / soda than you should?
Yesh, good gos yeah. And I need to cut back on it.

Do you have your ears pierced? If not, what do you have pierced?
Seven different piercings all in the ears.

Do you ever think you might be pregnant?
Not anytime soon.

The person I like and why I like them.
Jonathan, because his smart, funny, a nerd like me, and all around fun to be with.

A famous person I’ve been compared to.
Nope. I look nothing like any famous person.

5 things that irritate me about the sex I’m most attracted to.
They can be a bit slow at getting hints. Football/ Sports obsessions. Acting all "Big man on top"

The best thing that has happened to me this week.
Getting away with Jonathan for the weekend.

Weird things I do when I’m alone.
Not really weird, but I sing and dance... horribly.

How I’d spend ten thousand bucks.
I'd probably buy stuff to set up my business...

Things I like and things I don’t like about the way I look.
I like- My hair, my eyes, my freckles
I dislike- everything else

My last night out in detail.
Out with Jess and Keanu. Dinner, drinks and movies.

Something that makes me sad when I think about it.
A lot... not naming specifics.

Something I’ve lied about.
Not sure recently.

Something I’m currently worrying about.
My brother, my family, lack of money/ job.

Something I do without realising.
I apparently bite my lip.

Lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
Here.... this song... right now----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCGpI6rz3x4

A drunken story.
Umm I don’t really have any, never truly been drunk. I tend to hold my alcohol really well, that and I don't drink much anymore ... for certain reasons. xD

Post a picture of myself.
http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn1/30970_10151240451939927_57367818_n.jpg

my longest relationship and who it was with.
Basically 2 years with James.

Press ctrl v and post.
No as that would just repeat the survey.

Post a bit of my last IM convo.
I haven't had an IM convo in days now v.v... so nothing to post here

5 things I want to change.
My lack of money, my boredom, my lack of confidence in myself, family issues, the on going depression/insomnia

Someone I’d like to be for a day and why.
Not sure.

5 things within touching distance.
Laptop, phone, kitten, candle and Brave (Merida) figurine

When was the last time you went tanning?
I don't tan... ginger *points to hair* .. remember?

What is your favorite drink?
Changes.

Do you spend more time on the computer or watching tv?
Computer.

Do you wear makeup?
Now and then, usually when I go out.

Are you a neat freak or a big mess?
Somehow, I am a mix of both.

Who was your favorite Disney character as a child?
As a kid, it was Ariel (red hair thing) ... now for sure it's Merida.

When was your last family vacation?
Umm... 2008, I wanna say.

What do you want to be when you’re older?
A massage therapist...

Have you ever wanted to be a foreign exchange student?
YESH!

Do you have an ipod?
Yes.

Do you take naps?
Sometimes.

Where was the last place you went to?
Savers.

Have you ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

do you have any pets? (if so, what kind)
4 cats, 1 dog, 1 bunny, a shit load of chickens.

Do you curse?
All the damn time. xD

What is bothering you right now?
A lot.

What is a next upcoming event that you’re excited about?
Sunday, Cannibal Corpse with Jonathan. Only we would go to metal concerts for a date. xD

Do you text people that are sitting next to you?
Yeah, I do.

Have you ever been in a food eating contest?
No.

Have you ever been in a car accident?
Yep, last February, pretty bad too... ruined my mini-van o.o

Have you ever ate dog food?
No.

Have you ever performed on stage?
Loads of times. I went to an Arts school. xD

Have you ever ate raw eggs?
...in cookie dough, brownie/ cake batter...

Do you live in the moment?
More or less.

Do you take long showers?
Yeah.

Are you religious?
Not really.

Are you dramatic?
At times.

Have you ever ran through a drive thru?
Why would I do that.

Bitchy, ranty...and probably rather offensive

I don't know what brought this on. Oh, wait... yesh I do... but that's neither here nor there. Give you a hint, it's gonna be ranty, it's gonna be bitchy and there's going to be cursing... end of story. Don't like it? See that "X" in the corner *points*  go ahead and click it.

*****Disclaimer---- If you feel any of this is geared toward you... perhaps it is, perhaps it isn't. That's on you. There is a reason I used no names, and it shall remain as such. *****


I'm done being an option to people, when I make them a priority in my life. I don't like being greeted by utter silence when I need someone there the most. And then have people complain to me about it when I'm not there for them every bloody time they need someone to simply shove all their problems onto. I am not a fucking tack board that you can just stick your problems to. I'd be more obsequious about it all, if you were there for me when I need you or simply anyone to be there for me; instead of shoving me off as unimportant until you have some use for me. That's a great way to make someone feel real good about themselves. Wait... no. Actually it's a really good way to make someone feel worthless... and an even better way to lose a friend.

Secondly, if you have an issue with the way I live my life, who I associate myself with or who I date. Guess what? I really don't care, keep it to yourself... or if it really bothers you that much, tell me it bothers you and then promptly walk the fuck out of my life and save yourself the aggravation that I am so fervently causing you by living my life. If who I date bothers you (when in reality, it shouldn't; again my life, my choice), if it creeps you out that much, doesn't suit your morals, or simply makes you jealous or what have you... guess what, you may take your leave of me as well. I'm not going to change who I am, or who I want to be with to please you. Because it doesn't matter if what I does pleases you, it's none of your damn business. Give you a hint, it's my life... I'll do as I please, and see whomever it is that makes me happy. I don't judge you, the way you live, or the people you see.... don't bloody do it to me.

On the note of who I date/ see, not that it's really anyone's business. But since it seems to bug people so much, I'll share it here. Yes, I am dating Jonathan. Yes, he is 10 yrs older than me. Yes, we've known each other ages. No, it is NOT creepy in any way, shape, or form. But that is my opinion and the opinion shared by the people who matter most to me, the people who TRULY care if I'm happy or not. Again you don't like the way I live my life, there's the exit *points again* ... you don't have to stay and I'm not gonna try and make you. That being said, off the subject of my love life, it's mine... you don't really need to know about it. 

Moving on from that, the people who refuse to help themselves when they are more than capable of doing so. You are not as helpless as you make yourself out to be. You look for pity, but you have all the means you need to fix the predicament you're in. That being said, you simply choose not to, and continue to be depressed, bitchy, and you have this false sense of entitlement. That everything should just be handed to you, because "you deserve it". Give you a hint, if you aren't going to try to fix your problems, you deserve only what you strive for; you don't deserve handouts. Simple as that. 

Something I will never understand is how someone can spend literally every waking second flirting with anything that moves. I swear, if a table lamp had legs, you'd find a way to charm it into your bed. Wanna know what's even worse? When you do it and you shove it in other people's faces, even when you do it "unknowingly".... it's bad-mannered and uncouth. From what I can discern, you don't want to know about mine, so why put you're sexual exploitations out in the air? That's right, you have to brazenly flaunt your conquests as it were to feel more "manly". Tantalizingly attractive isn't it? Heh, no far from it. It's actually quite cad-ish and abhorrent in taste. Nothing like the casual man whore.

You've already heard my rant on the whole becoming an actual adult bit, not going there again. Not worth my time. But then again, on the subject of being an adult. Turning eighteen does not constitute adulthood.It is just the age that this society and many others deem "adulthood" simply to have kids get out of their parent's houses and out on their own. Ok, it works great if the kid is ready, but most of the time said child is not ready. Nor is that child ready to get married at the age of eighteen to a person younger than them. This goes back to the blog from a few weeks ago and few recent events. Translation, my younger brother turned eighteen, decided he was a man and wanted to marry his girlfriend of about 2 months.... left in the middle of the night on Thanksgiving (Way to be a douche-bag btw!), never said a word about it to anyone, just up and left leaving behind only a few excuse ridden notes. Yeah! Adulthood! T-T 

Lastly, that one person who has nothing to do with your life anymore, but insists on butting in their damn nose. This is directed to one particular person, who I know still reads this blog. Just stop harassing me and the people I care about. It's terrible when you literally have no clue and you have this deluded sense of  "I'm still your best  friend" .... give you a hint, when I stopped talking to you almost 3 years ago... that made our friendship null and void. Simple as that. So please, just bugger off and live your own life and stop telling me how to live mine. 

So that was really ranty, and well it felt good to do it. But, now that I've offended probably half my followers with my language and/ or what I've said.... I'm gonna go. Actually take that back, I want to wish my nephew Tommy a happy 6 months! You're growing up too quick lil bugger. xD  

Now I'm gonna go. 

Legalities O. e

So, it's been a month since I graduated from uni. Guess who still doesn't have her license or a job? Ayup, this girl. Can't afford to take the actual test, or apply for my license... bigger issue.. I can't get a job to pay for said test or license because and here's the kicker.. I don't have a license. Way to go legalities.. way to go. >.<

Probably the shortest blog entry ever right there *points*... and do I care? Not really. xD 

Update thingie... sort-ish

So I've been told an update is needed here on Blogger, so here goes.

1) I am utterly tired of uni and cannot wait to be done
2) As of today there are 16 days left until my trip.... probably part of the reason I hate uni so much right now
3) My lovely brunette partner in crime is 500 miles away for the next 11 weeks >.<
4) My father is supposed to be gone and in Florida the day I leave for my trip... that's a good/ bad thing if that makes sense.
5) I finally after profuse moaning and grumbling from Kas and several others switched from my horrible Mac to a normal PC.... guess what? So happy I did, I've missed PCs so much and didn't even realise it.
6) Mum had her back surgery... she's doing so much better now. Still sore and trying not to over do it... but she's happy she can get back to her gardening.
7) Much to everyone's amusement.. for as little as I listen to it... I apparently sing country music with a southern accent.... not sure is that is a good thing or a bad thing for me.
8) I have found I have a huge love for DragonBall Z Abridged.... I wonder who is the culprit behind that one. xD
9) My name has been changed by just about everyone I know to "The princess from "Brave"..." or "Merida".... to the point where EVERYONE at uni refuses to call me by my real name at this point. Can we just go back to calling me my "normal" nicknames of "Rach, Spazz, and Artie"? Please? O. e
10) I am a very, very happy duckie.... that is all.

Wow, this totally failed way worse than I thought it was gonna. *shrugs* Oh, well. I'll try something different next time. xD 

For gran, not that you'll ever read it...

Ok, so here goes a rant... I suggest you turn away now because this one is really not worth it. I just need to get this out.. and I've chosen here to do it. O.e

I'm sorry not the 120 lbs you think I should be... that my body isn't "perfect" like yours, I'm sorry that I go to university for something that you don't approve of, I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect Catholic like you. I'm also sorry that I failed in every way possible in your eyes.

Wait... why the hell am I apologising for who I am? I'm not sorry for the fact I'm 180+ lbs, that I'm squishy and cuddley... guess what? I love that about me... you don't like it? Too damn bad. You go ahead and be you... let me be who I am, I like it that way.  You don't need to go around telling me that I don't eat enough and then say that I need to eat less because I'm unhealthy... guess what I know this... I'm dealing with this I don't need you or anyone else to remind me. >.<

As for university, I love what I do... I found something I'm good at and love... you think it's something it's not maybe if you were a bit more open minded you'd see that... but I doubt you ever will. And perfect Catholic my ass... if you were as perfect as you make yourself out to be, you'd accept me for who I am.. faults and all.  If I'm going to hell for not being Catholic, I hate to see where it is you end up with the way you judge not just me, but everyone else who doesn't live up to your standards.

I'm done, there's way more to this... but I'm done... thought it would help... but since she'll never actually read this...so seems kinda pointless now. *mumbles and runs off*  ._.

Update thingie

     So I have been asked to do random updates here and there for my lovely blog readers. So I shall oblige said request and try to do some more updates in between the surveys and other random things.
     So first things first... emm I started and am actually almost halfway through my second module of my massage therapy course. Meaning I'm almost halfway done, September 17th seems so close and yet... so far. >.< But as for uni, it's going well... actually better than I could have ever imagined. I kick but in Anatomy and Physiology along with the actual Massage class as well. I love being able to get away from the family and the general stress of home three days of the week. I know that sounds terrible, but it's true.
     Hmm, as for family life.. it so could be better... as may of you know my father love to go head to head about literally everything. Needless to say that well... hasn't gotten any better... not at all better, if anything tis worse now than it ever was. But I have learned to keep my head up and shut my mouth half the time, if I don't attempt to argue back usually works out to my advantage. Keyword there was "usually". xD
     Emm, I took a group of little kids to the roller rink... yeah, you all know where this is going don't you? That means me... who hasn't used actual roller skates in about 12 yrs... trying to teach kids ranging from 3-9 yrs old how to skate. Only fell a few times... and none of those falls were my fault, I blame the munchkins. But I will admit that even though I'm ungodly sore, like everywhere... it was a blast. I want to take a few people in my own age bracket, but I have been told that may not be the brightest idea I've ever hatched. Rach is a total klutz and so are most her friends. xD Yep, see that going oh so well.
    I think that pretty much sums up everything from the past few weeks. Uni has pretty much taken over my life... but it'll be worth it in September. ^.^ Woot, for ranty-awesomeness.... but Imma go now and leave you all with that.

Also here is a Valentine for you all! 

Best Valentine ever.. right? xD 

Lemons, Insomnia, and an EPIC FAIL WHALE ...wait what? o.O

      Ok so I’m apparently just posting whenever I get bored. Not that I mind that, keeps me occupied for a short time, and well you get to sit through my randomness (not that you didn’t do that already if you know me personally).

 Guess who went on a nature walk for Mother’s Day with her mum and was left alone with a camera? *points to self again * … yep, you guessed it, this girl! ^-^ On another note, Yahoo Mobile, is a GIANT FAIL WHALE!! Just thought I’d put that out there and let you all know my feelings on that subject.                                         

      I am however going to rant about one specific thing and that is college textbooks. You pay an ungodly amount for them (like they’re made of gold or something) and then go to sell them back, only to find out that A) they don’t want the book you have anymore or B) your “new” edition when you bought it is now the “old” edition.  Let’s just go with ALL my books except one fell into scenario B.  Pretty sure I spent in the course of 2 yrs at The University of Toledo, almost $1,000 in books alone, and all I got back was a lousy $77.25 …GAH!!! >.< * throws useless chemistry book on floor and stomps on it * 

                                         

    And Rach is done now. Buh bye! Xxxxx

Run, run away...tis a rant O.e

Ok random rant, because well I feel like it and it’s been way too long since I’ve done one. That and you all love them any way so who cares; if you don’t click away … now. And on to the rant

1.)  If the purple llama starts speaking Spanish you should just run. Don't take the Magic Peanut Butter or the Doom Spoon. (Just word of warning)

2.)  Sanity is entirely based on perspective...

3.)  What tastes like deep fried happiness on a stick? .... Glitter xD

Ok, on to the official rant * flies off couch like a superhero only to fall to the floor * ... that didn’t go quite as planned. >.<  * looks around *  Good no one saw it. Anywho… did you know that the international telephone dialing code for Antarctica is 672? Just thought you should know that, everyone should... could come in handy one day, who knows. Also has anyone ever seen Bismarck the Tango Dancing / Extreme Racing Turtle? * raises hand* I have!! If I just completely lost you, talk to Marti… she might be nice and explain it to you.

Next topic addiction…. * runs and hides from the bottles being thrown* … yes I said addiction. I have one, not gonna admit the others, teehee, just gonna share one; you all should do the same. *thinks before continuing*  Hmmm... perhaps for now we should keep this topic to ourselves and save it for a later discussion.

THE GAME …tis all …. Phahahaha!!!! Sorry had to. ^-^

Here are some random facts, I must share with you all.

1.)    American car horns beep in the tone of F.

2.)    The fist product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.

3.)    The word "nerd" was first coined by Dr. Seuss in "If I Ran the Zoo."

4.)    The bagpipe was originally made from the whole skin of a dead sheep

5.)    Dueling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are registered blood donors.

6.)    The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

7.)    The largest number of children born to one woman is recorded at 69. From 1725-1765, a Russian peasant woman gave birth to 16 sets of twins, 7 sets of triplets, and 4 sets of quadruplets.

8.)    If you have 3 quarters, 4 dimes, and 4 pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.

And I shall now cease this madness… but I think these are all quite relevant to life and everyone should know them.  Ok..ok.. I was bored… but you were amused, right… for like 10 seconds? Right? O.o

Also, I don’t want to show off or anything… but I can tie my own shoelaces xD

Is anyone else lost as to where this is going? Because I am and I’m the one writing it. Eep …not good; then again that sounds like a typical Rachael move to me. O.e  [Insert cheesy grin here]  looks around checking to see if there is anyone with a pulse still reading this * Ok, wrapping this up… with ribbons, bows and GLITTER!!!! Bwhahaha!!! You know you love me!

Llama, llama, llama, llama… Duck!!! I win!! Yay!!! XD

Best rant ever! 

Toodles! Xxxxx

O.O

I have just realised that it has been forever since I last updated this blog. Fail. *Slaps hand like a scolded child* bad Rachael... teehee. ^-^ But I've been busy with school & stuff at home basically melting down in the last 2 wks. or so. But now that I am on summer break as of Friday until the first week of October, I shall try to post at least once a week on this blog and the other as well. But no promises.

But in the recent weeks/ months I have become quite secluded not that I mind much, there are a select few I keep in touch with (they know who they are) and I'm fine with that. I've switched majors and colleges officially (meaning no more being a number at a giant university, yay!). I think I've read too many books in the past few weeks, the latest being "Lady Chatterley's Lover" (again, tis one of my favs). Sadly I wanted to re-read "The Time Machine" but apparently my copy was destroyed over the winter when we had water damaged *sobs* (gah!!! one of my ABSOLUTE favs!!! >.< )

Also have to wonder how many people actually still read this? I know not many people still update their blogs anymore and I know I’ve become lax in my own blog. So I have to wonder, I’m gonna go with 4, if that. >.< 

And with that I’m gonna go * poof *