See one, want one.....

It's  been a while... so... here we go.

I am becoming very close to becoming an expert on baby fever lately. You might want to know, if I want a baby so badly then why don’t I have one? There isn’t a multi-list, complicated reason why Jon and I have not procreated yet. There is simply a one bullet answer of, we're not ready. Mentally we're ready, it's financially that we're not so ready.

Recently I realized something a little startling: I know 10 pregnant women. Okay, maybe 7 or 8 now because a few have popped. That is a whole lot of pressure to have my own. Babies, babies everywhere. If one more friend tells me she is pregnant, I think I might have to run out and adopt twins. I am 23 going on 24 — this is the time where babies fall out of trees, or vaginas, or what-have-yous. xD

Add to that a happy relationship, house, and cats, and well, my biological clock is ticking. I'll admit it. I have baby fever. Now, here's the thing about baby fever. My logical brain has plenty of reasons for us to wait. However, as soon as the middle of my cycle rolls around, all I can think about is babies.

Baby fever is tantamount to obsession. Suddenly, everywhere you look there is a baby. Restaurants, grocery stores, gosh darn Facebook feeds. "Let's wait a little bit longer," Jon and I will say, then baby fever will hit and I won't be able to think quite so clearly. Really, it's a sickness. Screaming, diapers, pregnancy horror stories, nothing will deter me. Baby fever prevents intelligently functioning brains from making rational decisions. Forget birth control. (Kidding by the way)

Fortunately, it only lasts a couple days or a couple weeks, and then my brain returns. Not that I don't want children, or babies, I just have a bit more to do first. Jon needs more time to come to terms with eventual fatherhood. I need to find a better job, one that I actually enjoy... one that pays better. Yeah, yeah, I know — you're never ready. Maybe that's why baby fever takes over: to ensure we have those babies before it's too late.

Signs you probably suffer from baby fever too: 

1.) You burst into tears at the sight of your Facebook feed and all it's birth and pregnancy announcements.

2.) You daydream about nursery colors instead of working, picking out all the wall decals and bedding in your mind.

3.) You buy baby outfits for friends and can't bear to send them.

4.) The sound of a baby crying makes your boobs tingle.. Actually, scratch that. The THOUGHT of a baby's cry makes your boobs tingle. Yep. It's true. xD

5.) You actually contemplate picking up a stray baby in the store and asking the mom how bad she REALLY wants her. It's a stray second of insanity, but enough to scare you.

6.) You have a million practical reasons not to have a baby and you still long for one.

7.) You daydream about baby names and feel like you will be lost if you don't get to name a baby after your great aunt Mildred who died with no children.

8.) You can't fathom the sleep deprivation, the late night feedings, and dirty diapers. It can't be that bad, right?




Anyone else besides me deal with constant struggle?

Lots and lots of questions

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Jon
2. Are you outgoing or shy? Meh, kinda both
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Jess and Charles
4. Are you easy to get along with? Overall, yeah.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Yes, he would.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to? .... Jon... that is all
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Ayup.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Jon...
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Nope.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Martika... other than that, Jon
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? Adam, about annoying people and their bullsh*t
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Break In ( Halestorm), Familiar Taste of Poison (Halestorm), Thousand Years ( Christina Perri), Let it Go (Disney's Frozen), and Forever (KISS)
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Yesh
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Sure
15. What good thing happened this summer? Lots of things
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yesh, always yesh.
17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Ayup.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Nope.
19. Do you like bubble baths? On occasion, usually only after a long day at work, or if I made a trip to Lush.
20. Do you like your neighbors? I don't know my neighbors.
21. What are you bad habits? A few.
22. Where would you like to travel? Yes.
23. Do you have trust issues? Yep.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Other than mischief ( almost a daily routine)... coffee....
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My tummy... bleh
26. What do you do when you wake up? Cuddle with Jon.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I like it the way it is.
28. Who are you most comfortable around? Jon, Jess, Marti, and Adam
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? At one point, each of them has...
30. Do you ever want to get married? Yep. Next October
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes, more than long enough.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Em.. none. I don't like the idea of a threesome.
33. Spell your name with your chin. racghkaell  ...... not too shabby.
34. Do you play sports? What sports? Heh, no.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV... I love music too much.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yeah.
37. What do you say during awkward silences? I kinda just make the awkward turtle and maybe weird faces.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy? ... Jon....
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Lush, Hot Topic, Target, Thrift stores, and ANY bookstore
40. What do you want to do after high school? I am already doing what I love... massage therapy
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? It really kinda depends on the person and the situation.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? I'm either extremely tired, pissed off, or just need quiet time.
43. Do you smile at strangers? All the time
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Space!!!
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Either work ( Jon's or mine) or the need for food/coffee
46. What are you paranoid about? Meh, not much
47. Have you ever been high? Yesh
48. Have you ever been drunk? No
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Nope.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Black, with a Sabaton logo
51. Ever wished you were someone else? Every once in awhile.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I'd love to be fitter and healthier
53. Favourite makeup brand? Hard Candy, Wet n'Wild,  Mark, and Rimmel
54. Favourite store? Bookstores...
55. Favourite blog? I don't really have one... I like a lot of blogs
56. Favourite colour? Purple, Black, Green
57. Favourite food? Homemade food....
58. Last thing you ate? Chicken nuggets
59. First thing you ate this morning? Jersey Mike's Reuben
60. Ever won a competition? For what? Emm, I won an iPad at one point on YouTube, for commenting on a video... and lots of books
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? No
62. Been arrested? For what? No.
63. Ever been in love? Yes.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? No, I think I'll pass on that.
65. Are you hungry right now? YESH
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Nah
67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook
68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now? Yes.
70. Names of your bestfriends? Jon, Martika, Jess, and Adam
71. Craving something? What? Soup
72. What colour are your towels? Teal... I hate them
72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope, I have Jon.
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? I have maybe 5... I got rid of a lot of them when I moved.
75. Favourite animal? Moose, or a hedgehog
76. What colour is your underwear? Black
77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Depends
78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Salted Caramel/ Butter Brickle, or chocolate and peanut butter
79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Black
80. What colour pants? Black
81. Favourite tv show? Game of Thrones, Once Upon a Time, Doctor Who, and a few others
82. Favourite movie? Alien, Brave, Frozen, Phantom of the Opera, LoTR
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Neither
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Neither
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? ... I have no clue, nor do I care
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dori
87. First person you talked to today? Jon
88. Last person you talked to today? Jon
89. Name a person you hate? Asshat...
90. Name a person you love? Jon, Martika, Jess...
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? I can think of a few.
92. In a fight with someone? Nope
93. How many sweatpants do you have? I own 2 pairs
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Too many
95. Last movie you watched? The Princess Diaries 2
96. Favourite actress? Jennifer Lawrence .. love her to death
97. Favourite actor? Viggo Mortensen.... yum
98. Do you tan a lot? Pffft, no
99. Have any pets? 4 cats
100. How are you feeling? Tired and pissed off at the moment
101. Do you type fast? Yesh
102. Do you regret anything from your past? A few things
103. Can you spell well? Yes, I can.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past? A few people
105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes
106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Yep
107. Have you ever been on a horse? I have...
108. What should you be doing? I've done everything I need to, I'm relaxing now
109. Is something irritating you right now? A fair few things
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes
111. Do you have trust issues? I think I answered this already, and yes
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Jon
113. What was your childhood nickname? Rach, Rachy
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Mhm
115. Do you play the Wii? I do... I am a Mario Kart addict
116. Are you listening to music right now? Not at the moment, was listening to Sabaton though
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? If it's homemade
118. Do you like Chinese food? I love it.
119. Favourite book? I have a few favs, LoTR, Gemma Doyle Trilogy, Robert Alexander Trilogy ( I could re-read those any day)  anything by Lovecraft, H.G. Wells, or Edgar Allan Poe... to name a few
120. Are you afraid of the dark? Not at all
121. Are you mean? ...no... but I can be
122. Is cheating ever okay? NOOOOOOOO
123. Can you keep white shoes clean? No, this is why I own no white shoes
124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really
125. Do you believe in true love? I do
126. Are you currently bored? Little bit
127. What makes you happy? Jon, Martika, Jess... chocolate, and Pibb too
128. Would you change your name? My last name.. in fact I will be next fall.
129. What your zodiac sign? Cancer
130. Do you like subway? I LOVE subway
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Not counting Jon, Adam did some time ago, it was kinda awkward for awhile, but we moved past it.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? See #10
133. Favourite lyrics right now? "Daughters of Darkness, Sisters Insane"
134. Can you count to one million? I can, but do I want to? Not at all
135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don't even now....
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Open
137. How tall are you? 5'5"
138. Curly or Straight hair? Curly
139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette
140. Summer or Winter? Summer
141. Night or Day? Night
142. Favourite month? September/ October
143. Are you a vegetarian? Pffft... no
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark or milk... white isn't actually chocolate
145. Tea or Coffee? Either one is fine, I love both
146. Was today a good day? Meh, not really
147. Mars or Snickers? Mars, is a lot like MilkyWay
148. What’s your favourite quote? On of them is " All that we see or seem, is but a dream within in dream" E.A.P
149. Do you believe in ghosts? Sure
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  "You must come when you are of age, Moirin"

Where did October go?!?! o.o

So, I have been accepted into two schools for nursing. Chamberlain, which was my first choice, and Columbus State Community College. Both good schools, one so much more expensive than the other. Even as an independent student, I'd have to pay over $2000 out of pocket. Give you a hint, I don't make enough to afford that. And of course, the financial aid advisor has continued to try and push me to take out a VERY expensive private loan. Give you a hint, I don't have high enough credit score, nor a co-signer to take out a private loan. So, that's where the other school comes into play. It’s a community college, which there is nothing wrong with, a 2 yr ADN program. After scholarships and grants are accounted for, I’d only need about $1500 covered, and student loans would be more than able to cover that. So, I’m going to a seminar to get the official nursing school application process started, and hopefully, I’ll be able to start there as soon as possible. :)

Hm, I've started the long and arduous journey of looking for a new job. I love what I do, most of the clients, and the people I work with. However, I cannot stand being underpaid, under-appreciated, and working for people that do not care about their clients, or their therapists. The only thing they care about is making money. It's pathetic, and I can't stand it. I need a place that's not so spa-like, not my kind of setting to be quite honest. So, here's hoping I can find something more up my alley soon. ^.^

Other than that, Jon and I got new tattoos the other day. They turned out amazing, as you can see in the pics below. Yay tattoos! xD

And to finish things up here, I shall be seeing my beautiful partner in crime later in the month. It is going to be a glorious 4 day weekend for me. It's going to be awesomely fun. It's been a while since we've truly been able to spend a good length of time together. I miss her desperately, and this is seriously needed. I need a girl's day... several days. xD Shopping and such.  ^.^  

And so, with that lovelies, I bid you adieu. Toodles. :3 

I've got nothing... just randomness

01. This time last year what goals did you have for yourself and have you achieved any of them?
Hmm, Jon and I had moved in together, I'd gotten my LMT license, so I was looking for a job. We were steadily heading towards an engagement in our very happy relationship. I have actually achieved them all.

02. What’s one quality about yourself that you feel sets you back but also helps you?
I'm too nice for my own good. I can't stand people being upset at me and I hate upsetting them.

03. Has anything happened involving you recently that has people in your life acting different towards you?
Two very good friends from high school. Have more or less cut me out of their lives for their significant other. That's pretty much it.

04. Is there anyone who lately you’ve been talking to more often?
Jonathan, Jessica, and Martika... The same as usual.

05. Who is the last person you’ve surprised with something? And with what?
Emmm, Jonathan. And goldfish.

06. What is your favorite kind of food to eat? (ex: American, Spanish, Indian, ect.)
Italian is pretty good, I mean pizza and pasta basically are the best. But I love Indian and Korean food too. xD

07. Have you recently discovered any artist or band whose music you like a lot?
I've recently rediscovered Finntroll... and several other power metal bands.

08. How long has it been since you were able to enjoy reading a book?
I'm reading one now.

09. Was anyone who had been in your company today in a bad mood?
....me....

10. do you miss the way things used to be?
Sometimes, yeah.

11. what is something that has been causing you stress lately?
Migraines, bills, distance from family and friends, relatively crappy job.

12. has anyone in your life (excluding family) that has made a life changing decision with you in mind or for you?
Oddly enough, yesh.

13. Would you ever get a tattoo in reference to music or a movie?
Uh, maybe... but it'd depend on what movie/music. I have one from literature.

14. What was the last news article you read about?
Ebola ...

15. when was the last time you tried something for the first time?
...Emm... Last week.

16. what are some touristy places close to where you live?
Uhh.... Cedar Point... King's Island...

17. when you’re listening to music on your computer what do you use (ex: itunes, youtube, ect.)
iTunes, Youtube, Spotify, Windows Media Player.

18. What does your last text say and who was it from ?
"Nope." -Jess

19. what is going on with everyone else who is in the house with you tonight?
I'm currently at work, and have an open block of time. Everyone else is in a massage session.

20. the last time you felt sick what exactly was wrong?
Right now... this past week... I've actually been physically ill all week.

21. if you had the choice right now would you prefer to be out or are you content with how things are right now?
I’m happy being in tonight.

22. Is there anything you'd like to say to your ex?
Emm... Honestly? I'd kinda want to apologize for a fee things, catch up maybe, I dunno. :/

23. What’s a question you’re afraid to ask? To whom?:
I want to ask someone for forgiveness. And I know this person wants nothing to do with me. So, that's why I'm afraid of that question.

24. Which fictional character would you most like to have lunch with and why?:
Gah! There are so many I'd love to have lunch with. xD

25. What’s something you hide about your personality?:
Not sure really, don’t purposely hide anything, it’s hard enough to talk to me anyway so once I’m talking I don’t really hide anything.

Updatey fun

So, I have come to terms with the fact that no one really reads this blog anymore. Doesn't surprise me. It's nothing great. I don't even have time to update it regularly. My bad. It's called a busy, and very hectic schedule. But I'm still going to post on occasion, at least updates. I may start another section/ blog that is focused on my wedding planning adventures, body positivity, and maybe even one that is focused on massage therapy and my adventures in that along with my upcoming adventures in nursing school. Maybe. Big maybes.

But, as mentioned above, I'm getting ready to go back to school to get my ADN. It should only take about 2 years. Which means, I can continue to do what I do now, and then once I'm done, get a nursing job, and then go back , possibly, for my BSN.. maybe later on down the road if need be. It's all gonna depend on when Jon and I plan to start a family, which I won't lie, we both want to as soon as possible. ( He swears we're going to have twins the very first go around. o.o)  We're hoping to wait until after the wedding, I say hoping because anything can happen. xD

Emm, news on the wedding, as of right now, there is actually quite a bit. Our first choice for the ceremony venue fell through. They were requiring us to have BOTH the ceremony and the reception at their site. However, we've had the reception venue picked out since day one more or less. But, that's ok, we found this wonderful little church in Maumee, and it's half the price that our first choice was. Score. We have our officiant, the wonderful family friend, Mr. Woods. I have my dress, which I'm currently holding off paying for, simply so that I can get another 6 months of them holding on to it. Because the girl apparently screwed up and it was ordered WAY too early. Moron. xD Hmm, other than that, we have some decoration ideas, not nothing really set in stone other than purple, blue, and peacock feathers. Otherwise, it's kinda whatever I find on Pinterest that I find well, interesting. ^.^

Jon and I went and saw my favorite movie on the big screen this past Sunday. Gone with the Wind. It has been my absolute favorite movie and probably book for that matter, for as long as I can remember. Meant a lot to me to have him willingly sit through an almost 4 hour movie ( we'll call it 4, since it's only shy by 2 mins. xD ) and not complain about it.

Umm, other than that. I've just been really busy with work, and such. Added more hours to my schedule, you know because that goes well with school. xD Anywho. I think that's enough for now. Yep. ^.^

I need to find something to do after work instead of Surveys

Where are you? On my sofa
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I certainly hope so...
Do you like anybody? I love Jonathan
Ever thrown up in public? Nope
Passed out because of alcohol? Nope
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? Jon, the wedding, my ring, going to Toledo this weekend for starters
What kind of home would you like? A happy and warm one
What do you want to be when you grow up? I want to me what I am now, a massage therapist, possibly a nurse, and a mother
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Married with a few kids
Do you like candy necklaces? Nope
Do you listen to music every day? I do
Do you still go trick or treating? No, but I pass out candy now
What was the last thing you ate? BBQ chips
Are you a fast typer? Yesh
Whats your favorite type of soda? Mr. Pibb and Cherry Coke
Have you ever moved? Several times
Have you ever won an award? A fair few
Are you listening to music right now? No, listening to The Tudors in the background
How long ’till your birthday? About a month
When were you the saddest in your whole life? There have been a few occasions, but I son't want to talk about them
Did you get this quiz from www.FunQuizNotes.com ? Nope
What time is it? 0215
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? I have in the past
Who makes you mad? Lots of people at times
Have you ever heard a song written about you? Not that I know of
What do you do when you’re mad? Usually get really silent, or really loud... depends
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? I've broken some things... 
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Not that I know of... 
Do you swear when you’re mad? Oh, heck yesh
When was the last time you actually cried? A few nights ago...
Ever cried yourself to sleep? A few times in the past
Do certain songs make you cry? There are a few... 
What usually makes you cry? Being overly upset, stressed, tired, or migraines. 
Are you usually a happy person? Pretty much
What makes you the happiest? Jon
Do you believe in yourself? More or less

That was fun-ish... mostly not.

1. First Name and middle name? Rachael Leann


2. What holiday is your birthday closest to? Fourth of July


3. Favorite fruit? Peaches and Raspberries


4. Does it bother you when someone says they’ll call you and they don’t? Meh, kinda.


5. Are you allergic to anything? Bees, probably penicillin, lots of fragrances


6. Is there someone/something you want? Jon


7. When was the last time you went swimming? Last summer


8. How many U.S states have you been to? 15 or so


9. How many states have you lived in? 5


10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? Nope


11. What’s your favorite kind of drink? Coffee,tea, and probably Mr. Pibb


12. Does anyone like you? Yep


13. Do you have any strange pets? No


14. What is your dream car? Corvette


15. What’d you do yesterday? Got a massage


16. Are you bipolar? Not really


17. So do you and your ex have a good relationship? No. No we do not. Don't see that one ever healing either.


18. Where would you want to go on a date? Anywhere with Jon


19. When’s the last time you were kissed? This afternoon


20. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? Jon has


21. Ever been kissed under fireworks? No... But I need that


22. What was the last text message you received: "Just cuddles and kettles chips tonight. xD"


23. Have you ever bungee jumped? No, but I want to


24. Have you ever kayaked? Yesh


25. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? Does Jon count? xD


26. Are you an extreme racist? No


27. What sound are you listening to right now? The Tudors


28. What’s your favorite song at the moment? I'm not an Angel - Halestorm at the moment.


29. What was the last movie you watched? Tombstone


30. When was the last time you went on a trip? I went to Toledo in May


31. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else’s property? No


32. Have you ever been punched? Nope


33. What’s the first thing you notice about the same sex? Physically- eyes personality-wise- compassion and humor


34. Do you have a nickname? Dove, Artie, Rach


35. What do you usually order from Olive Garden? It varies


36. Say something totally random about yourself? My left thumb pops constantly pops because I dislocated it.


37. Do you have an iPod? Yep


38. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? Once or twice


39. Do you have freckles? Tons


40. Are you comfortable with your height? Yeah


41. Do you love someone right now? I do


42. How tall are you? 5'5"


43. Do you speak any other language other than english? Spanish, ASL, some French, German, and semi-decent Russian


44. Have you ever ridden in a limo? Nope


45. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? Yesh


46. Do you watch MTV? No


47. What TV show do you hate? Reality tv, other than Masterchef... I LOVE Masterchef


48. What’s something that really annoys you? Liars and bad drivers


49. Do you think Paris deserved jail time? Wait, huh?


50. Do you have a celebrity crush? Meh, perhaps


51. Do you have a pet? 4 cats ... we're getting another kitten this coming Saturday though.


52. What is behind you? The sofa...


53. Do you drive when you go on long trips? Jon and I take turns


54. What’s the latest you have ever stayed out? All night


55. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? Once or twice


56. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? No


57. What are you wearing? Pjs


58. Who do you live with? Jon and 4 cats. Soon to be 5.


59. What color is your hair? Red


60. What color are your eyes? Brown 

Proposal related wonders...

As promised a much happier post this time around. As anyone who reads this blog knows, Jon and I got engaged back in March. However, at the time, we didn't have a ring. Well, we finally found one we loved. So when it came last week, he couldn't wait to re-propose and get the damn thing on my finger. So we went out to one of our favorite restaurants and he re-proposed to me. It was really sweet. We both ended up crying and being all sappy. On the way home, we couldn't figure out why we were such saps about it. The only thing we could come up with is that it was that it was an actual proposal this time around. He actually got on one knee, had a ring, and asked me. Which makes sense. It makes it more real.




Now this story has a slight bitter bit to it. The proposal happened last week, on Friday. So, I've had the ring for a little over a week. We noticed that the Rhodium plating of the black gold was coming off already. Now, after doing some research we found that it was pretty common, especially if the plating process was faulty. So it was very likely that was the problem. I had made sure specifically not to wash my hands with it on, use heavy cleaners, or anything like that. Anything that might destroy the integrity of the ring. Yet, the plating was coming off in less than a week. We had to call the jeweler and see what could be done. They offered to completely re-plate it again and see if it would help. But we ultimately opted to exchange it for the white gold version of the same style ring. So now it's a waiting game of them getting the old ring back, and them sending the new one to us. It feels so weird to not be able to wear my ring. I know its only been a week since I got it, but my finger feels so naked now.

The original ring

What the new ring shall be

Here's hoping that it is sent to us with great haste, and we have no problems with the new one. So overall, there is a happy ending to the whole story overall. ^.^   Well, dearies. I shall be off. Toodles for now.

Mishaps and ramblings of finding a wedding gown

So this happened... a while ago. But I thought that maybe those who read this, might enjoy this little slide show of the gowns I tried on with my bridesmaids and mum present, that didn't quite make the cut. ^.^



FYI, for those who are going to ask, I am not posting a photo of the gown I did chose. Not here, not on Facebook, or on Instagram. Sorry. You'll have to wait until the wedding, or until I post wedding pictures on here to see it. Sorry about your luck. Lol.

I will say though that experience of finding a wedding gown is not something I want to go through again. Most of the gowns come in sizes 8-12... and they already run small. So basically 90% of the gowns were either too small and I couldn't really get a feel for them, or I couldn't even try them on. the gowns that I did get to try on were generally much too big on me. And sadly, I've noticed that a lot of the gowns for larger women are quite frumpy, and it's actually almost hurtful. Like why can't I feel and look as beautiful as a thinner/ fitter woman? Thank you society for being stupid.

I thought I'd at least give you guys a glimpse into what my adventures in finding a wedding gown were like. So there you go. My mishaps and ramblings about the whole ordeal. ^.^

Jeez, this ended up being a lot longer than expected.

Ok, time for a slight rant. Yes, I know the last one was kind of a rant too, however, there are a few things I NEED to get off my chest. And this is MY blog, so I'll do what I want. xD

1) I love how people claim to be your friend, and have been/ were your friend for many years. Then all of the sudden they outcast you. Maybe not in the most literal sense, but you definitely feel it. They gradually stop talking to you, and then when you try to talk to them, your message can go as long as two weeks with no answer. However, when you do get to talk to this person, they swear up and down that they are still your friend. You forgive them and you talk for a few days, and then it goes back to utter silence from the other party. Nice little game, isn't it? NOT. Do they not realize that the phone and Facebook work both ways? That they don't have to wait for you to message them to talk. Apparently not. It's actually incredibly hurtful. And then after oh, I don't know, a month or even longer, they pop back in, send small little message and you answer back... and then hear nothing back at all again. Awesome. Seriously people, why should I have to put all the effort into a friendship that obviously this other person wants nothing to do with anymore?

2) Kind of ties in to number one. People who blame me for the failings of our friendship. Because I moved to Columbus.... to be with the man I love with all my heart... and to start a life of my own, away from home. Get a grip. I did not abandon you in any way, shape, or form. I did it for me, what was best for me... it had nothing to do with you. The fact that you actually think I abandoned you is kind of sad. I mean really? C'mon, you're an adult, so you say, I think you know better than to assume I abandoned you. Especially when I made EVERY effort to keep in touch with you when I did finally move. I got none of that in return, just the knowledge that I was being ignored and at the time didn't know why. So in essence, who really abandoned who in this situation?

3) Now this next topic may seem a little harsh, but it needs to be said. Cancer. I do not personally know how hard the fight with cancer is. However, I do know many people that have fought it, whether they won their battle or not, I know how it affected these people. It's hard, it's exhausting, both mentally and physically on both the patient, but their family and friends too. Now, that being said. I get that people are proud of the fight that they won/ or are fighting. However, when that becomes the ONLY thing you post about, it becomes kind of annoying. The whole pity me act... kinda old. And then when they say that they are better than others because they've beaten cancer, or deserve more things in life than others.... I'm calling bullshit. I may not have had to fight cancer, but damn it I've had to fight other hardships in my life that are just as mentally or physically scarring in many ways. Secondly, when you go on Facebook and beg for money and/ or gifts saying you deserve them because you beat cancer... again calling bullshit. You are a grown woman of forty, with a job and a husband... you can buy your own tattoos, and jewelry now, or have him do it, whatever floats your boat. Put on your big girl panties and grow up. I'm not saying that we shouldn't celebrate people who have beaten cancer, not saying that at all. It's when the "celebration" turns into an every ten minute ordeal on Facebook, or other social media sites... dear god, please, just stop it.

4) This is a pretty common topic in society. Body shaming. Basically it's discriminating between body types. Saying that one (skinny for example), is better than the other ( being larger/ curvier)... or vice versa. It's disgusting. No body type is better than the other. All bodies are beautiful. From rail thin to large and curvy, they're all beautiful. And this doesn't just go for women's bodies, I think when it comes to body shaming that people forget that men's bodies get body shamed too. It's just like saying that one race is better than the other. Except, you wouldn't say that in public would you? No. Didn't think so. Because you'd be labeled as a racist. And we just couldn't live with that sort of social stigma, now could we? So, how is that any different from what people do when it comes to body shaming? There is no difference, none at all. We need to educate people that all body types are beautiful, instead of writing them off as unattractive, and alienating them.

I think that's about it for now. I promise the next post will be a happier one... I swear. ^.^

Sorry, but not sorry...

So I have a small rant to deal with here. I'm planning a wedding, I assume my readers know this. I got engaged, so the next logical thing is to start planning a wedding. Right? ...Right.

That being said, I have to keep in mind that my parents want to pay for this event, minus the wedding gown, I flat out told them I would be paying for that, so that I get the complete and final say in that. So like I said, keeping in mind that my parents are paying for it, I want to keep the cost as low as possible. One way to do this is to have a very small wedding, and by small, I mean less than 100 people. Jon and I just want close friends and family, that is all. No people we barely know, no people who are for lack of a better term, Facebook friends. I can't do it, I can't invite every person we know, it would cost a fortune.

I don't want my parents to break the bank on this event. Yes, I know that it's supposed to be a grand affair, it's supposed to be beautiful, it's supposed to be about Jon and I, but I would feel horrible to make my family pay a fortune for it. I'm not that materialistic as that.

What Jon and I decided, please read that again, it distinctly says Jon AND I . We made the decision to only invite our close family, and closest friends. That being said, that means that there are a few people who will  be invited, but not their significant other. Mostly because Jon and I don't know said significant other, and guess what? A wedding is so not the time or place to get to know your friend's significant other, it's just not. No amount or arguing, complaining, or whining about it is going to change that. I'd say that I'm sorry that these particular people are not and will not be invited, but I'm not and neither is Jon. Because, again, it is OUR wedding. If you want to invite 300 people to YOUR wedding, then you do that; however, I will not be guilt tripped into inviting these people that we don't know to a wedding.

I think that people assume that we are singling them out and being "mean" to them and their significant other. And to be honest, it is nothing of the sort. It all boils down to the cost and the lack of a true connection/ friendship with these people. I'm not going to feel sorry for that, I'm just not. If you're going to take this as a personal vendetta against you and your significant other, that's your prerogative. To each, his own, as it were.

What I love even more about this, is that people who were so set on being there, because they are so happy for us, because they are a close friend and wanted to share in such an important day in my life have since changed their tune. Now that it is known that only very close friends and family will be invited, they no longer want to come. I'm the bad guy for planning the wedding of Jon's and my dreams. Is that so wrong? Apparently the answer must be yes, I mean if I'm offending these people so much. Last I checked, I never told anyone else how to plan their wedding, and never once complained if my significant other was not invited, and neither did Jon. we understand with the economy it just not frugal to invite everyone and their mother to your wedding, especially not for a budget wedding.

And please note, we aren't just inviting our friends and not their significant other, I can tell you right now, my younger brother is invited, however his little girlfriend is not. Granted, yes there are reasons that she is not invited. Mostly because there is some serious tension and dislike between my family and her's, but that is neither here nor there. I'm just stating there we're not just doing it to friend's, we're doing it to family too. It's not anything against anyone, we have a budget and we HAVE to stick to it. End of story. No ifs, ands, or buts. Not sorry. Get over it.  I'll be hurt, not gonna lie, I want my close friends and family there, but if you decide not to come to our wedding, your loss, not mine. I will have a wonderful wedding with the people who truly care about us and that is all I have to say about it. The end. 

I've missed doing these apparently.

1. Are looks important in a relationship? I can't lie and say they're not... anyone who says they're not is lying.
2. Are relationships ever worth it? Ayup
3. Are you a virgin? No
4. Are you in a relationship? I am, and I'm engaged too.
5. Are you in love? I am, madly in love.
6. Are you single this year? NOPE
7. Can you commit to one person? I can, and I am.
8. Describe your crush He's perfect, literally perfect in every way for me.
9. Describe your perfect mate Jonathan
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope, doesn't exist.
11. Do you ever want to get married? I do. And I am, next autumn
12. Do you forgive betrayal? Depends on the situation.
13. Do you get jealous easily? I can
14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Jon
15. Do you have any piercings? Yep, all in my ears
16. Do you have any tattoos? Nope, not yet.
17. Do you like kissing in public? Mhm
20. Do you shower every day? I try to, but at least every other day for sure.
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I know Jon does
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Jon might be if he's not completely focused on work
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes.
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I'll be married next autumn
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I am in a relationship
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yep, yep
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Not that I know of
28. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes v.v
29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No, could never do that to another person
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Nope, never truly considered it.
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yesh
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? ...yeah...
33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Only one, just Jon.
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Nope, not my kind of thing.
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Jon's older than me, so yeah.
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yep.
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Yeah, surprisingly
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Mhm
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yeah
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? I have, I love doing that sort of thing
41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yes, of course
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Depends on the situation, usually not very long
43. How long was your longest relationship? This one... and it's the forever relationship too.
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? Including Jon... 4
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? Like romantically kiss... just Jon
46. How many times did you have sex last year? I lost count a long time ago
47. How old are you? 22 going on 23
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I'd be too heartbroken to say anything
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? EVERYTHING
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Sure, it's been long enough that the apology would be nice.
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Jon
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? A few people, doesn't matter why anymore
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Not that I know of, or care enough about to care if they are...
54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yep, dick.
55. Share a relationship story.  Jon's and my first date was to a metal concert, Dethklok to be exact.
56. State 8 facts about your body --Freckles, red hair, chubby/ dimpled, small hands, brown eyes, oddly shaped, we have a love/hate relationship, pale skin.... yay!
57. Things you want to say to an ex ... I no longer have anything to say to asshat.
58. What are five ways to win your heart? Have a sense of humor, listen and actually listen, talk about books, or nerdy things, give awesome hugs, put up with my goofy randomness.
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? There's 11.5 years between Jon and I.
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Smile, and eyes.
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Whatever Jon does... it's all pretty damn sexy. xD
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?  I guess it's the general idea of sex, is what I'd go with
64. What is your definition of cheating? Any physical or mental straying from your partner
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? No telling
66. What is your favourite roleplay? .... again, not telling
67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Metal concert, and food after, going to the movies, taking a walk, or just sitting at home with one another.
68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight.
69. What turns you off? Douche-bags, overly cocky guys, etc.
70. What turns you on? Emm, I feel like I keep answering the same response... Jon xD
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I don't know
72. What words do you like to hear during sex? The normal sounds... sighs and moans...
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I like getting flowers, or having meals made for me...
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? I dunno
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Jon proposed... I'd say that's pretty damn sweet.
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? I've gotten Jon some really awesome concert tickets and sappy cards, letters, and poems. xD
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? Age is just a number.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret? I don't know...
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Probably when Jessica ( Jon's cousin) was showing off her engagement ring, and I don't have one yet. Was a little jealous.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Earlier today
81. Who are five people you find attractive? Jon, Viggo Mortensen, Jonathan Rhys-Meyers, Gerard Butler, and Kit Harrington
82. Who is the last person you hugged? Jon
83. Who was your first kiss with? .... Nope, not going there
84. Why did your last relationship fail? He was a dick... and it took me way too long to realize it, and he hurt me more than anyone else ever has.
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? Part of the back story to #84... allow to be blunt... NEVER again... 

Yay for more questions....

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? Yes, yes I would.
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Pfffthaha, no.
3. Have you taken someones virginity? Nope
4. Is trust a big issue for you? It can be
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? We live together, so yes.
6. What are you excited for? Next Autumn
7. What happened tonight? I did laundry, cleaned the house some, ran errands, and had lunch with Jon
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Yep
9. Is confidence cute? Yep
10. What is the last beverage you had? Sparkling water and mango-orange juice
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Jon and Adam
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? I own two or three pairs
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Em, probably yard work
14. What are you going to spend money on next? Fuel
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? I'm going to marry him, so yes. xD
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? Maybe a little.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Jon, Marti, Jess, and Adam
18. The last time you felt broken? Summer 2012
19. Have you had sex today? Technically.. yeah :3
20. Are you starting to realize anything? How some of my "good" friend's are actually not so great of friends
21. Are you in a good mood? I am. Woke up in a fantastic mood.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? Kinda did in Florida, but really don't want to again.
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? Nope. Neither of my biological parents have brown eyes.
24. What do you want right this second? Sushi, and for Jon to be home from work
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? I'd be utterly heartbroken.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Ayup
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? Eh, probably not. I need that in a relationship.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Jon, just something he said.
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? A few people.
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? Depends on the situation
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? Good god, no. I love him with all my heart.
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? Um, I certainly hope so. We're getting married.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? Nope. I like soda, but I'm cutting back.
34. Listening to? American Dad playing in the background.
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? On occasion.
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? At work :/
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope.
38. Who did you last call? My father
39. Who was the last person you danced with? Jon
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because I love him and he was leaving for work.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Em, Jon's birthday.
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? No :(
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Every freakin' day
44. Do you tan in the nude? I don't tan
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? Nope
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Every night
47. Who was the last person to call you? My father
48. Do you sing in the shower? Ayup
49. Do you dance in the car? Mhm
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? I have, and I love it
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? High School graduation
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Nope, I LOVE them
53. Is Christmas stressful? Yes
54. Ever eat a pierogi? I eat them and know how to make them. So take that survey! In your face! xD
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Peach
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?  Doctor, violinist, ballerina, among other things.
57. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Many, many times
59. Take a vitamin daily? Nope
60. Wear slippers? Mhm
61. Wear a bath robe? Nope
62. What do you wear to bed? Emm, nothing...
63. First concert? Eddie Money
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target
65. Nike or Adidas? Neither
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? Both
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? ... I don't have one...
69. Ever take dance lessons? Does dance class in high school count? xD
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Whatever Jon wants to do
71. Can you curl your tongue? I can
72. Ever won a spelling bee? Once, in grade school
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yep
74. What is your favorite book? I have many...
75. Do you study better with or without music? With music
76. Regularly burn incense? All the time.
77. Ever been in love? I am now.
78. Who would you like to see in concert? Ironmaiden, Kamelot,  Dream Theater, Rammstein, Boston, among a list of many
79. What was the last concert you saw? Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd tribute band
80. Hot tea or cold tea? Both
81. Tea or coffee? Again, both
82. Favorite type of cookie? Double chocolate chip with caramel chunks. xD
83. Can you swim well? Mhm
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yep
85. Are you patient? I can be
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? I'd love a band, but DJ is the way to go
87. Ever won a contest? A few actually
88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nope
89. Which are better black or green olives? I love both
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Emm, it's fun...  xD
91. Best room for a fireplace? My living room... Oh wait, I have one there...
92. Do you want to get married? I do and I am... next Autumn.

Lots of questions... and I do mean LOTS

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Jon
2. Are you outgoing or shy? Meh, kinda both
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Jess,
4. Are you easy to get along with? Overall, yeah.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Yes, he would.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to? .... Jon... that is all
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Ayup.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Jon...
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Nope.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Martika... other than that, Jon
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? Cari, making more excuses about the money she owes me.
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Break In ( Halestorm), Familiar Taste of Poison (Halestorm), Thousand Years ( Christina Perri), Let it Go (Disney's Frozen), and Forver (KISS)
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Yesh
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Sure
15. What good thing happened this summer? I moved from Toledo to Columbus
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yesh, always yesh.
17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Ayup.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Nope.
19. Do you like bubble baths? On occasion, usually only after a long day at work, or if I made a trip to Lush.
20. Do you like your neighbors? I don't know my neighbors.
21. What are you bad habits? A few.
22. Where would you like to travel? Yes.
23. Do you have trust issues? Yep.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Other than mischief ( almost a daily routine)... coffee....
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My tummy... bleh
26. What do you do when you wake up? Cuddle with Jon.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I like it the way it is.
28. Who are you most comfortable around? Jon, Jess, Marti, Adam and Keanu.
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? At one point, each of them has...
30. Do you ever want to get married? Yep.
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Em.. none. I don't like the idea of a threesome.
33. Spell your name with your chin. racghkaell  ...... not too shabby.
34. Do you play sports? What sports? Heh, no.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV... I love music too much.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yeah.
37. What do you say during awkward silences? I kinda just make the awkward turtle and maybe weird faces.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy? ... Jon....
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Lush, Hot Topic, Target, Thrift stores, and ANY bookstore
40. What do you want to do after high school? I am already doing what I love... massage therapy
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? It really kinda depends on the person and the situation.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? I'm either extremely tired, pissed off, or just need quiet time.
43. Do you smile at strangers? All the time
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Space!!!
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Either work ( Jon's or mine) or the need for food/coffee
46. What are you paranoid about? Meh, not much
47. Have you ever been high? Yesh
48. Have you ever been drunk? No
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Nope.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? It's a reddish-burgundy color.
51. Ever wished you were someone else? Every once in awhile.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I'd love to be fitter and healthier
53. Favourite makeup brand? Hard Candy, Wet n'Wild,  Mark, and Rimmel
54. Favourite store? Bookstores...
55. Favourite blog? I don't really have one... I like a lot of blogs
56. Favourite colour? Purple, Black, Green
57. Favourite food? Homemade food....
58. Last thing you ate? Homemade turkey potpie
59. First thing you ate this morning? Blueberry muffin cereal
60. Ever won a competition? For what? Emm, I won an iPad at one point on YouTube, for commenting on a video
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? No
62. Been arrested? For what? No.
63. Ever been in love? Yes.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? No, I think I'll pass on that.
65. Are you hungry right now? YESH
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Nah
67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook
68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now? No.
70. Names of your bestfriends? Jon, Martika, Jess, and Adam
71. Craving something? What? I really want Raising Cane's or KFC
72. What colour are your towels? Teal... I hate them
72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope, I have Jon.
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? I have maybe 5... I got rid of a lot of them when I moved.
75. Favourite animal? Moose, or a hedgehog
76. What colour is your underwear? Black
77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Depends
78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Salted Caramel/ Butter Brickle, or chocolate and peanut butter
79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Black
80. What colour pants? Black
81. Favourite tv show? Game of Thrones, Once Upon a Time, Doctor Who, and a few others
82. Favourite movie? Alien, Brave, Frozen, Phantom of the Opera, LoTR
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Neither
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Neither
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? ... I have no clue, nor do I care
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dori
87. First person you talked to today? Jon
88. Last person you talked to today? Jon
89. Name a person you hate? Assaht...
90. Name a person you love? Jon, Martika, Jess...
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? I can think of a few.
92. In a fight with someone? Nope
93. How many sweatpants do you have? I own 2 pairs
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Too many
95. Last movie you watched? Riding in Cars with Boys
96. Favourite actress? Jennifer Lawrence .. love her to death
97. Favourite actor? Viggo Mortensen.... yum
98. Do you tan a lot? Pffft, no
99. Have any pets? 4 cats
100. How are you feeling? Tired and pissed off at the moment
101. Do you type fast? Yesh
102. Do you regret anything from your past? A few things
103. Can you spell well? Yes, I can.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past? A few people
105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes
106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Yep
107. Have you ever been on a horse? I have...
108. What should you be doing? Taking a shower and finding something to nom on
109. Is something irritating you right now? Afair few things
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes
111. Do you have trust issues? I think I answered this already, and yes
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Jon
113. What was your childhood nickname? Rach, Rachy
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Mhm
115. Do you play the Wii? I do... I am a Mario Kart addict
116. Are you listening to music right now? Not at the moment, was listening to Sabaton though
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? If it;s homemade
118. Do you like Chinese food? I love it.
119. Favourite book? I have a few favs, LoTR, Gemma Doyle Trilogy, Robert Alexander Trilogy ( I could re-read those any day, anything by Lovecraft, H.G. Wells, or Edgar Allan Poe... to name a few
120. Are you afraid of the dark? Not at all
121. Are you mean? ...no... but I can be
122. Is cheating ever okay? NOOOOOOOO
123. Can you keep white shoes clean? No, this is why I own no white shoes
124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really
125. Do you believe in true love? I do
126. Are you currently bored? Little bit
127. What makes you happy? Jon, Martika, Jess... chocolate, and Pibb too
128. Would you change your name? My last name.. in fact I will be next fall.
129. What your zodiac sign? Cancer
130. Do you like subway? I LOVE subway
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Not counting Jon, Adam did some time ago, it was kinda awkward for awhile, but we moved past it.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? See #10
133. Favourite lyrics right now? "Daughters of Darkness, Sisters Insane"
134. Can you count to one million? I can, but do I want to? Not at all
135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don't even now....
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? We have to sleep with the door shut, much to our dismay, because the kitten wants to play when it's bedtime
137. How tall are you? 5'5"
138. Curly or Straight hair? Curly
139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette
140. Summer or Winter? Summer
141. Night or Day? Night
142. Favourite month? September/ October
143. Are you a vegetarian? Pffft... no
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark or milk... white isn't actually chocolate
145. Tea or Coffee? Either one is fine, I love both
146. Was today a good day? Meh, not really
147. Mars or Snickers? Mars, is a lot like MilkyWay
148. What’s your favourite quote? On of them is " All that we see or seem, is but a dream within in dream" E.A.P
149. Do you believe in ghosts? Sure
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  "You must come when you are of age, Moirin"

Engagement Ramblings...

It's not so much time to update, but more so to elaborate.

Two weeks ago, I announced that Jon and I were officially engaged. And yes, it is true, I shall be marrying the love of my life, my soulmate, my goof next Autumn.

Jon did things a little backwards. He asked me to marry him before he talked to my parents about getting their blessing/ permission. Fecking Polack. xD But he did talk to them, and they were more than ecstatic about it.  My father actually told Jon that he didn't need to ask, but I know my father and I know he really did appreciate Jon asking.

As for a ring, we don't have one...yet. Jon decided he wanted to go through that process together. Instead of risking getting me a ring that I'm in love with. It's actually really sweet. It means we can go together to pick out our rings and such. I like that idea, and so does he. We actually have rings ideas already, but I won't post any pictures here, mostly because we're not dead set on anything yet.

But we're going for an Autumn wedding, it suits us. The weather is not too hot and not too cold, just right. Plus, I love the Autumn season, it's suits my coloring and the general theme. Much to my Aunt Diana's distaste, I have no intention of going to the Justice of the Peace and spending a fortune of a honeymoon. I will have the wedding that Jon and I want, and still have a fantastic honeymoon. Basically the 70,000 tons of Metal cruise is our goal for the honeymoon. It'll be awesome, I'm sure I'll keep the blog updated with some wedding/honeymoon related things.

You're probably wondering how he asked. And I shall tell you. I actually thought that he was joking when he asked. We had been talking about getting married, the things we wanted and how far in the future we wanted children and that sort of thing. And then nonchalantly, Jon just stopped me and asked me to marry him. No ring, no big surprise, nothing like that. Just a simple proposal. And that is why I thought he was joking at first. But after making sure he wasn't I gave him my answer and the rest is history. ^.^

As I get more details figured out, I shall post more about that, and such. But for now, this is enough about the matter. 

Biggest news ever!!

So there had been news, important news. I mentioned it before, but I can officially announce it to the world.

Jon proposed back in March, we were waiting to say anything until he got the chance to talk to my parents. But now that that's done, we're officially telling everyone who cares. But that being said, I shall post more about it later. Hopefully the link can be seen in the blog. If not, someone let me know. ^.^

Post by Rachael Bond.

Whoot for news

It's probably about time for a quick update. I mean it has been a few weeks. Granted it's mostly the same old, same old.

Work has be hectic, I've been picking up/ covering hours for people whenever I can, the extra cash is nice. though most of it goes right into savings for reasons. Reasons I can't say yet. I'm not exactly allowed. xD Only Jess and Martika know why... but they too have been sworn to secrecy. When the time comes, I'll post all about it on my blog of course.

In exciting news we got a kitten. Her name is Ripley, she's adorable. She's a little brat though, always wants to play when we want to sleep, and vice versa. xD The other cats are still getting used to her, but Jon and I are now apparently official crazy cat people, because we have four of them now.

We're slowing making the house more like a home, finally deciding on colors, and the types of plants we want in the garden. You know, like couples do. It's nice. It's all falling together, even if it does take some time and money to get it all done. Our biggest expense is going to be the new mattress we really need/ want to get. It's a bit pricey, but it'll be worth it for the wonderful sleep we'll get once we have it. 

I've also forgotten how wonderful Netflix is. We finally got better internet service. Everything is clear and fast, we can watch Netflix properly, YouTube doesn't take ages to load, it's fantastic. Such a long overdue little thing we needed to get done. I can watch all those fun documentaries, and tv shows I love. ^.^

I'm trying to figure out where exactly March went. Where February dragged on for what seemed like ages, March blew by like nothing. It's weird. But Spring is on it's way, and it is truly welcomed... I'm done with snow and cold weather. 

For the time being that's all I have to say. That may change, I have a feeling a small rant is coming up, nothing too terrible. I promise. xD 

Adventures of a Dove, her Lion, Panda partner in crime, and a Bear

This isn't so much a update post as it is a set of pictures of my recent adventures.

Pretty fountain, and even prettier Tiffany & Co.
we were so close to going in, but decided
we weren't appropriately dressed. xD 

He got a hold of my phone. Look at that face, he looks sooo pleased
to be out in the sunlight and shopping. 

His epic semi-accidental selfie of the both of us... fantastic

My beautiful partner in crime. ^.^

The best part of Sundays, Suspect Earth band practice. :D 

Like I said, not so much an update, more like photos I've decided need to be shared with all my readers. Hopefully I'll have more to write about in the near future. Like Schmidts. German food and adventures (again) in the German Village. Excited for that. I love German food, and this place is supposed to have some of the best in the area. Next time we go out, I'm finding a Korean restaurant, I think Jon would like that. 

Jess, Charles has been given the animal name of bear.... just thought I'd point that out. 

In like a Lion and out like a Lamb..... yay March

It's update time, you know, because that's fun and all. I've been good about it, makes me happy that I can at least semi- keep this updated. It's the one thing I do on a regular basis anymore. I almost never get on IMVU anymore, no one else is ever one and the reasons I used to be on all the time are no longer there (aka, depression, anti-social personality, no motivation, toxic relationship, you know the old norms). But enough of that. Onward and such.

I made a horrible and yet, great mistake last week. I picked up hours at work, lots of hours... early hours. I am not a morning person. Somehow though, I made it through and I will have made as much in only a week, as I do in an entire pay period. Heck yesh. On top of that I still have this week and tips too. Awesome. It'll be a really nice paycheck next week. I can get ahead on bills and put some into savings.

Jess and Charles are supposed to come down and visit me this weekend, really excited for that. I miss my partner in crime. Plus it's an excuse to drag Jon out of the house for couples activities like KDB; think Chuck e. Cheese for adults, kinda like Dave & Busters. I think we're all looking forward to that, being the nerdy dorks we all are. Then other activities like dragging the guys around shopping/ exploring at Easton and Mario Kart couple against couple... so excited for that. We don't get to hang out with too many couples, and the ones we do, we usually don't do much. So this is such a nice change.

Hmm, I pre-ordered Frozen, because you know, it's one of my absolute favorite Disney movies now. It's still a bit of a wait for it, but I'm excited. It was my one splurge this paycheck. I feel really good about keeping myself on a decent budget now. I never really had that ability before, but now that I have all kinds of responsibilities and bills to pay, I had to force myself to learn to budget and save money. It's good to be a responsible adult. xD 

But enough of that. I don't have much else to ramble about. Other than the weather finally looks like it's decided to be spring. So excited for that. Nice warm weather, adventures, gardening. It'll be nice. 

I'm finished for the time being, hopefully I'll be able to post about this awesome weekend, hopefully. Until next time! Toodles! 

111 lovely questions.

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions? Sure...


2) Was your last real relationship a mistake? Ayup... HUGE mistake


4) Who did you last say “I love you” to? Jon


5) Do you regret it? Absolutely not


6) Have you ever been depressed? Of course


 7)Are you a boy or girl? Girl


8)  Do you and your ex have a good relationship? Pffft, no. Not even close. 


9) What is your relationship status? Very, very happily taken. 


10) How do you want to die? I dunno 


11) What did you last eat? Raising Cane's 


12) Played any sports? Nope


13) Do you bite your nails ? Used to


14) When was your last physical fight? Never had one


15) Do you have an attitude? Of course


16) Do you like someone? Mhm


17) What is your real name? Rachael


19) Are you gonna get high later ? No


20) Do you hate anyone at the moment? One or two people 


21) Do you miss someone? A couple people. 


22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? Twirl. 


23) Do you tan a lot? Not at all


24) Have any pets? 3 cats and a goof


25) How exactly are you feeling? Like shite, I'm poorly at the moment. 


26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Emm, yeah. 


27) Ever made out in the bathroom? The bathroom at home, nowhere else. 


28) Would you take any of your exes back? Absolutely not. 


29) Are you scared of spiders? Not really 


30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I think it would be neat to. 


31) Do you regret anything from your past? A few things. 


32) What are your plans for this weekend? Work T.T


33) Do you want to have kids? Yep


34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? Yes


35) Do you type fast? Mhm. 


36) Do you have piercings? How many? 8 all in the ears 


37) Want any more? A couple 


38) Can you spell well? Yes


39) Do you miss anyone from your past? Ayup


40) What are you craving right now? Nothing really, maybe hot tea


41) Ever been to a bonfire party ? Many, many times


43) Have you ever been on a horse? Once or twice


44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? No


45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Once


46) Have you ever been cheated on? Yes >.<


47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Not that I know of 


49) Would you live with someone without marrying them? I am right now. 


50) What should you be doing ? Probably sleeping


51) What’s irritating you right now? How crappy I feel


52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yeah


53) Does somebody love you? Yep ^.^;


54) What is your favorite colour ? Purple, black, and green


55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yep. Jon could not understand how I managed to do it. 


57) Do you have trust issues? Yeah. 


60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? More or less


62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? Probably not, don't see why he would. We both said/ did things that hurt the other and it screwed up a semi-decent friendship after our breakup. Such is life. 

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of? Jon


64) Do you give out second chances too easily? Yeah, I tend to. 


65) Is it easier to forgive or forget? For me, kind of both 


66) Is this year the best year of your life? I dunno about of my life, but it's been a really good year so far 

67) What was your child hood nickname? Rach, Rachy, Dove


68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Nope 


70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Kind of


71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Em...mischief  :3 


73) What is bothering you? How icky I feel, and having to work the rest of this week. 


74) Have you ever been out of your province? Yeah...


75) Do you play the Wii? Sure do. 


76) Are you listening to music right now? For once, no. 


77) Do you like Chinese food? Yeah. 


78) Do you know your fathers b- day? Yep. 09/30/1970


79) Are you afraid of the dark? Nope, love it


80) Is cheating ever okay? No, no, no. Never. 


81) Are you mean? Not really. 


82) Can you keep white shoes clean? No, hence why I own none. 


84) Do you believe in true love? Yeah. 


88) Do you like the outside? Sort of. Lol. xD 


89) Are you currently bored? Little bit. 


90) Do you wanna get married? Yesh, and kind of in the near future. 


91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Only when it's Jon. 


92) Are you hungry? Not really


93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? Yeah. 


94) What makes you happy? Jon, books, music, my family and good friends. 


95) Would you change your name? My last name... To Jon's. xD 


96) Ever been to Alaska? No, but I want to. 


98) Do you watch the news? On occasion. 


99) What’ s your zodiac sign? Cancer


100) Do you like Subway? More than I care to admit
 

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Emm, no. I do it everyday. 


102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Uh, he kinda does and has made it known. Made things a little awkward for awhile, but we worked past it when he realized Jon and I were a serious thing. 


103) Do you talk like your friends? What does that even mean... Like, do I talk like a normal person or something? Weird question. 


105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? Ayup. 


106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Yep. 


107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? Jon. 


108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? No, not really. 


109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Jon, oddly enough it was about kids and marriage. xD 


110) Favourite lyrics right now? Probably to "Let it Go" 


111) Can you count to one million? I could if I wanted to... But I don't want to. :P